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Friday, June 04, 2010

Hello blog. Your owner is back. Poo to insomnia.

A lot of things have been happening in the past few months or so. Too much drama for a simple person like me. Haha. Of course not everything happening is bad. July is a happy month for me, but all the preparation is killing me. It’s now me against time. Actually I just need a kick-ass seamstress to make me a pretty dress lah. Haha. And flowers and hair and make-up later, then I can breathe. But these things sound easier said then done ok! I’m particular about such things, and I’m not willing to pay copious amounts for it or it’ll bound to make tubs sweat. Hur hur.

Followed Kailing to her outdoor photo shoot the other day. I was dish-of-the-day I swear. It was a fucking mosquito feeding frenzy in damn hot weather. I wonder how tubs and I are gonna cope when our time comes. We’re both not big on insects and the mad Singapore sun. Other than that, it was a real tiring process. And out of all of us, I should be the least tired because I only joined them after their indoor photo shoot, I stayed in the car most of the time, I didn’t have to do any posing, and I definitely didn’t have to run around in a gown that weighs a ton. So kudos to Kailing!

By the way, I am not working for the last company anymore. Like I told everyone, I can talk a whole load of bullshit, but when people try to make use of me, they can go fuck themselves. This is such a long story that I have no idea how I’m gonna put everything down, but it’s too wasted not to give this story it’s deserving place on my blog. Maybe I’ll dedicate the entire next post to this story. Haha.

Another thing that happened did not involve me. That’s if I’m being selective and narrowing down to the main people involved lah. Cos if not, it pretty much involves everyone in one way or another I guess. I’ve got not much to say about it, but I think it’s a waste things turned this ugly, but I also understand that people have to do what they have to do. I wouldn’t want everyone to pretend to be okay when everyone knows otherwise. I wish that through this incident, when everyone has cooled down, that they can reflect on it all with a open mind, and learn from it. At the end of the day, I wish that everyone looks deep inside themselves, and be true to themselves. For some things, it doesn’t matter what others say or think, but all you need is to be answerable to yourself. It sucks to be misunderstood, but most importantly is to have a clear conscience, because it is yourself you have to live with for the rest of your life.

In the mean time, I’m waiting for both Jes and Jane to finish their exams. I miss them girlies! Thanks Jane for finding time to do a buffet steamboat dinner/pukefest with me the other day, and I can’t wait to meet Jes-可-以-借-我-lighter-please-吗 tomorrow after her final paper.

PS Both the ezlink advert and the Gatsby one pisses the hell outta me. But any publicity is good publicity, no?

PPS Fun fact of the day: Yuan can’t pronounce ‘shrimp’ HAHAHA!

PPPS I can't be bothered to post HK pics or Melb pics anymore. They're on my FB anyways. But here are 2 photos for the fuck of it!

Can you spot I ♥ Marlboro Menthol Lights? Haha. How the ash formed this way, I have no idea.

This is long overdue. Thank YOU for the Steve Maddens. Love 'em!

Asphyxiated at at 5:11 AM

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Hello people. Here I am again after forsaking my blog for so long.

Here’s a quick update:
1. I’m working now (yah I can hear a chorus of ‘Finally!’ going round.. Whatever people!)
2. Which means I’ve been staying at Glenn’s since starting work
3. Which means I have no car
4. Which means I’m very much more domesticated
5. Which leads to me realizing one thing - I can’t do without a car
6. Which means hopefully next month I can buy a car
7. Which doesn’t mean I’m earning a lot - in fact, I’m grossly overworked and underpaid

Ok that’s not much of an update but whatever.

Oh oh! You learn something new about me everyday - now I am able to sleep before 1am. Isn’t that wonderful news? Whatever happened to sleepless in siglap eh.

Anyways, there is one big reason owing to today’s post. But I shall not go into details cos I don’t like to be an outright bitchat times, but I so need to bitch. So I’m torn. It’s too public here, but it is my personal space eventually. Contradictions are such a pain.

But then I decided that tomorrow I’m meeting my lovlies. And as for my bitches and Jes dear, we never seem to have too much of a problem setting aside time for each other. So details details details shall come first hand from me.

All I wanna say is sometimes, people should learn how to reflect. And put themselves in others’ shoes. And generally be nicer human beings. I think basic things like these go a very long way for their own good.

I’ve had more than a few people say that I’m asking for it. But I went ahead with it anyways. And I’ll try to make the best out of it. And I hope my patience stretches abit longer. Or else it’ll turn very ugly.

Btw, tubs and I finally got a flat. And that’s like after the government sucked us of so much money. Finally! Happy to have a place of my own, but not that trilled with the waiting time and the size of the house. Boo!

There are a lot of other things to update but I’m not gonna do it today. So many things, so little time. When I’m free, I’ll post all the pictures - I know I’m still owing Phuket and Melbourne pics. And then there’s Hong Kong pictures. Yup Hong Kong. It was a last minute decision for everyone to go Hong Kong together as Grandma’s birthday celebration so about 20 of us ended up going Hong Kong for the weekend. Yup, just Friday to Sunday. It was a fab trip, especially since we haven’t all traveled together since grandpa passed away and Hong Kong is like a second home to us anyways.

K people. Gotta run! Til the next post~

PS I miss everyone sooooo much!

PPS Everyone keep yourselves free in July =x

Asphyxiated at at 7:14 PM

Monday, January 04, 2010

3 January
Macs for breakfast

Fat Boys for supper

2 January

4 cups of Frolick, 3 different sizes later, we realised that not only are the small and medium cup sizes about the same, they give about the same serving amount in the big cup as the small and medium cups. Quite a con job, maybe it was just the crappy server, but we still love out Frolick.

1 January

Frolick Yakult Grape flavour. And we were still reminiscing of the exact flavoured Mr Softee the day before.

Cook out at Glenn's. What a feast and it was oh so yummy!

NYE!!!

30 December

Orchard with Mel and her caption for this photo which she posted on FB reads 'Meet my hooker cousin Jassie'. I did not wear this out BTW. We were just fooling around and trying on everything at Ion. Thanks Mel...

And while we were walking around Mandarin Gallery, we were stopped and given vouchers. Woo Hoo!

Gift from Jes. Punggol Parked with Jes, Ah Hoe and Tubs at night.

29 December
Jang Shou Korean BBQ Buffet with my lovelies

Happy 2010 everyone!

I'm so looking forward to Phuket that's gonna be here in a blink on an eye~

Asphyxiated at at 9:18 PM

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I know I haven’t been blogging much and hopefully it’ll be more than a post of picture updates once a month. Haha. Been too busy to blog but what I’m busy with, I have no idea. Hur hur.

2009 is just about to be over in a blink of an eye. This year, baby Shania, baby Ellie and baby Tiara were born, I went to Melbourne with tubs (I know I haven’t posted the pics yet. Haha), there were a whole load of fab birthday celebrations, Tricia went to Melbourne to study, Darren got married and so did 2 other people very close to my heart, amongst other events.

The not so happy events, I shall not mention.

This wasn’t a bad year, it could have been worse so I shall not complain too much, but at the same time, it could have been a lot better too. It was a year which seemed very stagnant and stable on the surface, but was tumultuous deep within me, bringing me to the brink more than a few times. Many times, I questioned myself and was still unable to find answers. Sometimes, I had to fight temptation and squelch the devils in me threatening to get out.

I think this year I lacked happiness. I wasn’t full blown miserable or anything as people can tell, but it was the kind of happiness I needed for myself, to feed my soul. Not the kind of happiness when I’m out having fun. I think at certain points when my happiness level took a dip, it was such an immense feeling of emptiness and near giving up that there is absolutely not a single person I can think of that is worth my time of the day at all. I think this year I emptied out. I am unable to give as I used to give anymore. But how can I give when there are no returns? When there’s no input, there is no output. I’m done being nice, I’m done being patient, I’m done being sensitive while the world just steps all over you and then suddenly, the world turns around, points at you, and faults you for changing. Well, it’s not my fault when my good deeds are being taken granted for and I’m not being treated like I deserve back in return right?

I wish myself happiness for 2010. I still love everyone but 2010 is gonna be all about me first cos I think it’s long overdue. It’s time I get myself some happiness. Something so simple, so basic, so easy for me to give out without a care in the world, this year, that’s what I’m gonna give myself =)

Asphyxiated at at 3:27 PM

26 december
Boxing Day Party @ Tanglin CC with Tub's family