Monday, January 31, 2005
Woke up at 7am.. ready to wash up and go school.. when i realised i wasn't feeling too good so i went back to slp.. only woke up in the afternoon.. throat hurts like hell and my nose is leaking non-stop. went to the doc in the evening & apparently it was some pretty serious shit.. tonsils were very swollen and i oso had fever so i was given 2 days mc and i have to follow up if i dun get better by wed. supposed to abstain from smoking & junk food.. i shall c wat i can do abt it.. my nose is so sore now.. it oso doesn't help dat its blocked so im having a tough time breathing properly but im still in the mood to spend money on clothes & shoes.. wassup wif me man.. getting my priorities all wrong!
Asphyxiated at at 11:52 PM
The past week seems like a blur to me now.. i seriously haf short term memory.. havent blogged for ard a week or so and i cant recall wat has been happening.. lets see.. Mandy, Dan and Cosmo went to KL.. Boo Hoo.. But now they are back *grinz* It sure feels weird without them though.. I misssss them so much! Anywae, i got class lata so i shall make a quick update of the past week.. Lets see.. Tuesdae i met my darling taitai Rachel after she ended work and we went shopping. Shopped at LV, ate at Crystal Jade. Dats wat i call life. Poor Ah Boy had to follow us around and take shopping bags.. *keke* Dan called back from KL wen i was on the cab home. They rilly seemed like they were having lotsa fun. Not fair! *hehe* Weiling went on a long busride 2dae which got me so damn worried. Nuff said. Wednesdae, met Rachel and Ah Boy in the after noon and we had another round of shopping and pigging out. After dinner at Indochine to celebrate Rachel's bdae wif Jes and Fei De, i met up wif Weiling and we were so aimless but veri insistant not to go home so we ended up having bottled alcohol near Devil's Bar and Jasper and gang who were there came down to join us awhile. Around 1+am, we took a cab down to mit Ah Boy at Lavender for pig organ soup but me and Weiling had meat ball soup. Kept my mind off Zouk so dat was good news. Thursdae... grandpa got admitted to hospital.. dun wanna talk abt it..juz hope he gets betta real soon.. at nite went for some super aimless wandering.. juz to get away from home n pass time... Fridae nite went east coast for drinks.. Saturdae Went Fusion Billiard to look for Ah Boy and gang and we went for beancurd b4 watching Aviator.. Nice show i muz sae.. though it was 3am wen it ended...
Asphyxiated at at 1:22 AM
Sunday, January 23, 2005
FRIDAE
Went to Lindy & Shane's wedding dinner at Copthorne. Was quite tempted to drop by Zouk since its right beside it but i was tired so din go in the end. It was quite a small wedding.. only 25 tables and the food wasn't dat great..
SATURDAE
Went Ikea wif mum & dad in the morning. So tired.. slept at around 5am last nite and had to wake up at 9+ dis morning.. Bought some nice boxes to store my stuff since everyone's complaining how messy my room is.. went home.. fell asleep.. den went orchard. Met Ah Boy, his brother and Andy at Scotts foodcourt. After dat i asked them to go up to Chinablack first den i met Mandy, Daniel & Rebecca. Daniel had to send Rebecca home to change so me and Mandy went to Macs to wait for Weiling to reach den we went up. Met Jes, Rachel and the rest upstairs.
I oways like many frens to be around and todae i was pretty happy.. until Rachel got drunk and me and Jes followed Ah Boy down to send her home. We we tried going back in, there was a big fight upstairs and they din let us up -haix- So me and Jes sat outside to watch the fuss and rest our legs. So many police.. drunk & shouting bastards.. ambulance.. finally they let us up at 3+ and there was so little ppl left.. stayed until around 3:45 den went 220.
I juz hate it when people make you drink alot and they dun bother looking after you. Rachel's guy frens made her drink til she was so drunk and in the end it was me & Ah Boy dat had to look after her. I even wonder if they knew she had gone home or not. But i rilly appreciate Ah Boy looking after her & sending her home and it as also nice of Edwin to sms me and ask if Rachel was alrite. It rilly goes to show who are the real frens that care for you.
Asphyxiated at at 1:11 PM
Friday, January 21, 2005
WEDNESDAE
After the sucky accounting paper, i went Tampines KBox wif Dan, Mandy, Kailing, Sharon and Jackie until around 7+pm den went home to get ready for Zouk!
Dan was supposed to reach my place at 930pm but he ended up reaching past 10pm -haix- He was like a pimp.. fetching 5 girls to Zouk *haha*
Zouk had no queue todae so dat was veri good. Basically drank til 12+am, went Phuture til 2+am and den spent the rest of whatever time there was left at Mambo Jambo. Todae felt abit bittersweet.. hard to explain why..
After it ended, we actually wanted to go eat Bak Kut Teh opposite Zouk but the ppl there were so attitude (as usual) so we went another place and the onli females around were prostitutes so we refused to eat there and we ended up going to Jalan Kayu. Its been awhile since i last went there. After dat, Dan sent all of us home. I feel for him.. it was such a long way.. i felt tired just sitting there.. First to drop off was Mandy at Sembawang.. den it was Sharon at Geylang Bahru..it was supposed to be Weiling next but Dan missed the Eunos exit so i got to go home first. It was around 7am when i went to bed so i can imagime wat time the rest of them slept -sehzation-
Asphyxiated at at 4:26 PM
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
I'm so drained.. so confused.. and my studies have been put on the line. I thot i was strong this time round.. but i guess i was wrong.. tomoro is accounting test.. i haven't even touched my book.. i think i've resigned to fate.. or ijit juz dat i dun haf the mood to think about my studies? I feel empty.. and lost.. gnaw fong pat dai and seh pat dat nei.. but i rilly gotta get over dis..
Asphyxiated at at 1:53 AM
回頭再看我的最初
尋尋覓覓活在迷惘
多得您引領我
天天您亦為我
令我找到片段亮光
完全怪我要一試高飛
完全是為著令人生更美
珍惜您愛過您
感激您念掛您
無奈到最後要分離
過去的絲絲記憶繞困我的心
我卻要掙扎離去
我捨不得您 yeh yeh
無奈我要創造未來
共您普普通通的去愛
未夠我獨個精彩
我捨不得您 yeh yeh
無奈我有我的未來
願您找到心中最深刻的愛
永不更改 全心我祝福您
再見了遠去了 尋求未了願
愛過了放棄了 全是自己挑選
過去了我去了 揚翔是我願
別日日或夜夜亦在為我心酸
Asphyxiated at at 1:09 AM
是你故意欺騙 怪在我太過心軟
你的真話就 等於夢囈 與謊言
無奈你說得太自然 令我聽了也能熱暖
甜言蜜語 原來又一次食言
是你對我改變 你別說世界轉變
解釋得混亂 千絲萬段 太多糾纏
誰沒興緻守這諾言
但卻對我再全心詐騙
胡言亂語 任你講足半天
為何永遠放不低 為何錯愛這一位
但求仍然維繫 不惜一切 我為你執迷
為何永遠放不低 任情愛控制身體
任誰關心 仍未可把你代替
(是明知的 仍願將心意白費)
Asphyxiated at at 1:08 AM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
SATURDAY
Juz as i was starting to eat my dinner, my dad started lecturing Jasper about his hp bills but everytime he talks, he says "you all". I get it.. his indirectness is recieved loud clear thank you very much. Then he went on to ask if i have frens to wanted the dog. Yup.. again. He's so insistent on giving my dog away its driving me nuts. I stopped midway thru my dinner, left everything there, and walked off.
Decided to go get changed and leave the house before i explode and thats when i realised that my diamond necklace was gone. Searched high and low, and i guess it was the air-con service ppl that stole it when they came on friday morning. I can't find a betta explaination cos they were the only people that came to my house and it was right there on my dressing table when i last saw it. So much for my brilliant rose.. but trust me, its not the end of the guy who stole it yet. Its just bad luck for him to have stole from such a vengeful bitch like me and even if i can't get my property back, i'll make damn sure he regrets it like hell!
Went to Naughty Cats at Tanjong Pagar to celebrate Peiyi's birthday. It wasn't too bad. I hope she's better off wif her present BF who seems to treat her much better.
Asphyxiated at at 3:11 PM
Saturday, January 15, 2005
FRIDAE
I ended class before 1pm but i hung around in school wif Kailing & Huiting doing nothing until 3+. Is home really such a dreadful place to return to? Anywae, i had to go home cos i was going Black at nite which means i haf to shower & change etc. Thot of taking a nap cos i was deas tired but i ended up watching Chocolat dvd. I thot it was a rilly good show. Johnny Depp is juz yummy!
Met Mandy and we went shopping before the shops closed & i bought a top from Esprit. But since its black.. i guess i haf reason to do more CNY shopping *hehe* Met Jane & her BF while walking to 7-11 to get ciggies. Hope she's happier wif dis dude ;) Met up wif Eric & Tee Seng and we went to Macs to chill since there was no queue at Black & waited for Jes, Weiling & WeiQiang to come. Clubbed til 3+am and decided to leave.. all of us went down but Mandy, Weiling, Fish & Co were going to stay til 6am and they came out juz for a break so i left wif Eric & Tee Seng to Newton for supper. Its been such a long time since i last saw them so it was a good time to do some catching up :)
Asphyxiated at at 6:44 PM
Friday, January 14, 2005
THURSDAE
So much for being proud of myself for not going clubbing yesterdae. Regretted it like mad. Especially when i din go for class todae. Hehe. Yep. I noe there are many people out there who wants to give me a good knock on the head.
I woke up early, packed my stuff - poster colours, brushes, container, palette, magazine, a3 paper etc.. went to school.. and lost the mood to attend class. So after much consideration.. i called Valentino Chan out.. and told him i wasn't feeling well. He looked a tad disappointed. I dun blame him.. i haf onli appeared twice and both times i left after not even afew minutes. He muz rilly feel like i hate his lessons or something. Anywae, he was still very nice about it & offered to email me the assignment briefs for me to do the past art pieces.. and then he told me to take care.. and... i went to biz park to find Huiting. *LOLx* Mandy joined us after her french class & me & Mandy went to reservoir for a puff while Huiting went for another class. After Kailing came to look for us, we were heading back to school wen i realised that i dropped my hp. Scared the shit outta me man. By lucky it was still there when we went back. Met Weiling at the busstop & we went Tampines Mall to haf some food. My stupid shoe strap came loose so i ended up sharing cab home wif Weiling -sigh- Put some glue on my shoe..hopefully i can still wear it.. my darlings gave it to me on my bdae & i like it so much
Asphyxiated at at 2:17 AM
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Aw shitters. Im having withdrawal symtoms.. its the first wednesdae in a very long time that i did not go clubbing & im feeling miserable at home! Even though there are loads of ppl to chat wif on msn now & not forgetting i got lots to do for my project, i still can't get over the fact that im not at zouk! It din help dat Jane & da chix called and asked me to go wif them. Dan is there too.. Boo Hoo! I shall try to make up for it this fridae.. Chinablack! But its just different la.. i love Zoukm on wednesdaes.. -sigh- okok ..i shall quit whining.. its back to project now..
Dun blame it on the sunshine
Dun blame it on the moonlite
Dun blame it on the good times
Juz blame it on the Boogie!!
Asphyxiated at at 2:15 AM
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Its wednesdae once again, and Daniel has asked me to go zouk once again. Its a veri tempting offer, trust me. Especially when i feel i need a break from home & school. BUT after getting Valentino Chan's call this morning, i have decided to attend Co&Co classes, starting 2moro. Haha. Yup, i've finally decided to attend my first lesson since school started which has been like what? 5 weeks?
Asphyxiated at at 7:01 PM
*SIGH* Home is such a depressive place to be in right now. A home should be a place where you have the privacy you need & it shld give you the feeling of comfort. It shld oso be a place where your fucked up day is a thing of the past. BUT not my home. I try to stay away from home as much as possible nowadaes. When i get home, i hear my mum going on endlessly about everything! I guess it comes with the fact that she's getting older therefore the need to nag more but its really the last thing i need. My dad is not helping by trying to give my precious dog away!! I think im seriously going mad. Im so considering moving out(yes,wif my dog) & maybe get afew frens to bunk in wif me to share rental. Otherwise, im fine wif staying alone. I juz need my space & privacy! So many conflicts happening at home, can actually be solved by a simple four letter word - MAID. Yup. Why try to save $$$ to a point whereby now there is so much unhappiness at home? After the maid left,
1. i spent a bomb catering for my bdae bbq cos mummy dearest din want to show she can't cope without a maid
2. the whole house is filthy & messy!
3. i haven't gotten to eat proper home-cooked food. its either eat out, buy back, instant noodles, or going granny's house to eat. I feel like im in a welfare home or someting..
4. the folks' frustrations have been pushed to my dog?! Yup. Believe it or not.. Dad fell down while washing the floor - dog's fault, dog made a mess of the place - dog's fault, dog din finish her lunch - her fault, fur all over the place - surprise surprise, her fault again -sigh- trust me..these are just afew things off the top of my head.. theres more mind you
Mummy is so free at home for goodness sake! Do some housework den woman! What she does is use the computer, watch dvds, go for flower arrangement classes, go lunch wif frens, go bible study, go manicure & pedicure, go for french lessons etc etc etc. If you wanna act like some tai tai, den increase my miserable allowance & get a maid!!!!
Im so sick of all this shit. I shall go take a puff of 'fresh' air now.. its my best companion when im home.. Marlboro!
Asphyxiated at at 1:36 AM
Monday, January 10, 2005
SATURDAY
Went to M'sia to eat in the nite wif 220 ppl. Met Kailing & Dan at the Tuas top-up cash card area & brought them in. Saw Wang Wang on the way. Met Tian, Suleen, Boon, Zhi Hong, John, Yi Xing & his gf at Esso den went to Peling to eat. Its been such a long while since we last went JB to eat oready.. shiokz..good & cheap food & cheap ciggies!
Asphyxiated at at 9:14 AM
Friday, January 07, 2005
DAMN! Last nite...... i gave in to temptation...... & went Zouk wif Dan. Yup. Despite my veri bad headache earlier in the dae, i still could not resist going there. Im not sure if its a good or bad thing but that place brings back far too many memories.. bitter-sweet memories -sigh- Saw Lin Guang there wif Rong De's gan mei mei. Wat a stuck up little girl.. but i shall not judge ppl by first impressions.. after all, she's wif ppl i find to be quite nice so how bad can she be rite.. Anywaez, mambo ended at 3am.. boo hoo.. why can't they end at 4am... nevertheless, it was a good clubbing session. Melissa was there too but i din get to see her. Leo was oso there but i dun even recognise him.. it was after i walked past him den he sms me... freaky..
Was contemplating on whether to go for co&co or not..den i decided to call Valentino Chan & ask if he has oready debarred me but i couldn't get thru his line.. so i went school at 4pm to discuss project wif Ah Fan, Tammy & Karine. Discussed for less than an hour onli..spent the rest of the time talking cock especially when Ashraf & Kailing joined us later. When Weiling ended class at 6pm, i went to General Office to get a form abt the smoking issue. Wat the hell.. so damn troublesome.. so i gotta go find course manager 2moro n get her to sign it.. TP management is rilly fucked up & no life man. Slacked in tampines wif Weiling until 8+ den i headed to bedok to look for my folks for a ride home
Asphyxiated at at 1:17 AM
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Went to school around 1pm for project discussion. Started having a headache and it got worse over time. Finally at accounting class, i told the teacher that i was not feeling well & i went home. It was totally killing me man. Told Weiling that i wun meet her up at tampines oready & oso canceled dinner planes wif Rachel & Bessie. Wat a bummer. If not for my headache i mite haf considered going Zouk wif Dan & Cosmo tonite. Anywae, i had instant noodles while watching Chicago DVD when i got home. I tink its the overload of instant noodles that is making me ill. But what to do.. its such a hassle cooking something decent. I still think we should employ another maid -haix-
Asphyxiated at at 6:45 PM
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Todae is a pretty BLAH dae for me. Its so sickening that so many bad stuff has been happening at the beginning of the year.. its a bad sign i tell you..
This morning, my mum woke me up at 8am & told me that my dad couldn't fetch me to school becos he fell yesterdae and was unable to walk. I had to rush like crazy to get changed & ready and when she fetched me to bedok mrt station, she was taling her own sweet time. I really can't understand how anyone can drive as slowly as she does. By the time i reached bedok, it was 10mins away from class & we were supposed to have amadeus online test todae! I took a cab to school & the bloody taxi driver brought me to goodness-noes-where! I seriously wonder if he even noes how to go to TP. He missed soooo many streets that he was supposed to turn into and in the end he went by such a long way. By the time i reached school, not onli was i late, the cab fare was $9. WTF?!?!! Usually from my hse to school is onli $5. It would have been much cheaper since i boarded at bedok.. but since i was in a rush.. that taxi uncle better thank the gods its his lucky dae.
Amadeus test sucked... as expected. Im so bad wif computers.. *sigh* After that, me, Dan & Kailing went to the reservoir for a smoke. It so happened that once Kailing put out her ciggie, the security came & demanded for me & Dan's matric card. Wat bad luck man! It happens that so deputy director or something was eating at Mensa canteen & saw ppl at the reservoir smoking & he sent the security to come catch us. Can't some people just mind their own damn business?! TP has the dumbest policy on smoking man!
Anywae, went to collect back my card after school. All i can do now is wait for wateva warning or punishment to come my way. Me & Kailing den went to Tampines. Went to print some pictures from my digi cam & we sat down for kopi at coffee bean. Afta dat we walked around abit more before finally settling down at the open space drink stall at pavilion. Later on Weiling came to look for us & she met Ann for dinner. They joined us again after dinner & we talked cock & i helped Kailing almost complete a story & add on to her journals for her creative writing until around 1030pm before we decided to go home
Asphyxiated at at 1:58 AM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
In the evening, went to Yuan's fren's place for BBQ. Did not eat nor stay long cos we were feeling quite bored & out of place there and Kailing had oready gone home. Me, Weiling, Daniel & WeiQiang then went to a place at east coast road to eat. Saw Vincent Ng there & Dan says he's gay. Is it true? Hmm.. Anywae it was a nice place i would say. Not too expensive, near my house & its open 24hrs! The Mango Pomelo smoothie was yummy! After that went to 220.
Asphyxiated at at 2:20 AM
