Wednesday, April 27, 2005
I have been trying to post an entry for the 4th time.. the first 2 times, the com decided to screw up and my entry was gone after typing so much.. the 3rd time, i decided my entry would bring upon some unhappiness and a possible strain to a friendship therefore i have decided not to talk about it.
I gotta wake up in afew hours' time and im wide awake and my hair is still wet from my crazy hour shower and im hungry. Boo Hoo. I hate being home alone at such an hour. Its far too quiet and lonely. If it wasn't for the fact that i haf to wake up early, there's no way i'll stay at home during this kind of time.
Had a talk wif mummy on sunday and the situation's not looking good. Its tiring and i dunno what to do.. i hate that feeling. I used to feel that home is my safe haven and everyting is alrite here but recently, im starting to think twice. Too much shit.. too little solutions..
I have my problems too.. some people think dat im problem-free. Some people think that my onli problems are tiny guy problems. Guys are too trival for me to lose sleep over. Not that i dun think about it at times.. but they seem so insignificant when compared to other stuff. I guess its about how i dun like to share some stuff with others. Maybe dats just the way i cope. But trust me. I do haf stuff on my mind...
Asphyxiated at at 2:39 AM
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
My wisdom tooth almost killed me over the weekend.. hurt so much but now the pain has somewhat subsided.. Went Clementi PartyWorld last nite den went Alameen after dat to find Kailing and saw ah-toot there. He veri dao.. but den once i left...he sms me until i reached home n wanted to slp. Haha.
My air-con is spoilt! F**K!!! That is one thing i cant live without and it died on me.. WTF man.. guess i'll be sleeping in Jason's room 2nite.. lucky he's still in Aussie..
I had a CSI marathon 2dae.. watched it the entire dae on cable den they will have it later on channel5. What can i say, its a fab show and im bored.
Chatting wif Jack on msn now and he reminded me dat 2dae is waffle-dae! *yummerz* Its been too long since i last indulged in Gelare. Nvm.. wen Ling starts working there, i shall haf free ice cream -haha-
Gotta go school 2moro for SIP talk.. sianzz... it means having to wake up early.. and my LO is Tan Hsien Wei.. good or bad.. i dunno... im juz glad its not Zhang Wei.
Asphyxiated at at 6:55 PM
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Yesterdae, went S'goon gdns for some beer. After dat, went Alameen to look for Mel and Kailing and i had egg prata and teh-peng -yummers- Went home after dat and i was on the fone wif Victor til around 8am until mummy became irritating and insisted dat i get off the fone. WTF, im 22 years old dis year mind u. Dun bl**dy tell me when to or not to use the fone! Anywae i was getting tired too so we hung up. Got to catch up wif him a little and the rest of the time was spent squabbling *haha* Funny how some things go.. after we broke up, i thot we would neva ever remain frens or contact each other anymore but i couldn't be more wrong. And because im no longer his gf, i can bitch about everyting and be totally unreasonable and he will agree wif everything i say and give in to me and i can tell he genuinely cares for me. Im glad we are still frens. There is no way in hell we will get back together but i prefer the way things are now. Im content... Come to think of it, maybe he's so nice to me cos his bdae is next week.. hmm... *lolx* okok.. i noe him betta than dat.. he's not dat kind..
Wednesdae came and went.. and i did wonder.. 'wat if i went ahead wif plans and went to zouk instead of s'goon?' 'would he be there?' 'if i saw him,wat would i do?'.... so many questions but the answers are so few.. i shall try not to think about that so much and look forward to chinablack 2moro! Black is getting repetitive and a little boring.. the music is much to predictable and there are more and more people that tries too hard to be cool. Gimme a break man. Anywae, black is 1 place i can see people like Weiling and Mandy rilly enjoy themselves so hopefully i will have a good time too. Wats more, Jes and Rachel are going, so is Sharin which i haven't met up wif for the longest time. Oso, ah huat said he will try to tag along. I love big crowds when it comes to clubbing. -YAY!-
Im so tempted to go HongKong wif Mel before my attachment starts... -sigh- i shall go ponder about it.. i realised dat i've been out at nite so much dat i haven't gone for a shiok shopping session in quite awhile. Any shopping kakis??
Asphyxiated at at 11:57 PM
Monday, April 18, 2005
I am unbelievably tired.. and yet i wanna go out and just not think about anything and have fun. I guess plans for KTV is still on.. *yay* Then i can get people to sing for me *LOLx* Its funny how its been quite awhile since the people from school last met each other (including those that aren't even close) but so much gossip and rumours have been going round. Met up wif Dan, Mandy and Weiling todae and i felt so auntie listening to the stuff that has been going round.
Im so sleepy but if i were to fall asleep... i can forget about about going out oready cos i can't imagine wat time den i'll wake up. I like home the way it is now - QUIET. No mummy nagging... No Jasper banging on his drums..
I think i betta go dry my hair den i can head out before i give in to temptation and take a nap.....
Asphyxiated at at 5:52 PM
Friday, April 15, 2005
Im so damn bored... and yet too lazy to go out.. anywae i guess i'll be out the entire fridae.. so i shall try to stay put at home.
Today i broke a fingernail *sigh* I guess im not fated to be able to keep a perfect set of nails. Or maybe im just too careless.
I feel like a need a real comforting hug.. by who... i dunno..
A letter today made me pretty happie. But it will lead to more things to come..
I woke up at 8am dis morning.. which led to a nap gone wrong.. which led to me being f**king awake now..
I feel like going clubbing just for the hell of it.
Im so fed up wif my computer cos its giving me all sorts of problems
I am so not looking forward to supp papers and internship.. i love the holides
I've got a sudden craving for some rilly good ice-cream
I tink i juz need a smoke........
Asphyxiated at at 12:41 AM
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
For the first time in a long while, im actually home at dis time. Thanks to revision lecture which was at 10am.. After dat, thank goodness daniel sent me home cos i was so tired and the sun was killing me. Had lunch, then my nap turned into hibernation.. Woke up for dinner, watched TV, and here i am online, too awake to even consider sleeping.. i guess i'll walk over to find Mel lata since she's home.
I haven gotten the chance to see or speak with Mandy since dat dae.. do hope she's doing fine. I dunno the full story so i shall keep all comments to myself in the meantime.
A certain lamer went missing todae.. poor fellow was sick.. so.. do get well soon. I have no reason to be angry cos its a valid reason that you were unwell.. dun make me out to be such a hard-to-please-bitch lar. Haha. More worried than anything else cos of something stupid he did yesterdae dat still stuns me abit..
Its oready wednesdae... does dat mean Mambo Jambo or Chinablack? I tink it will be Zouk.. i can't decide if i would love or hate to bump into a particular person.. hhmmm...
I oso wanna wish my aunty corina and jane a veri happie burfdae! *muack*
It doesn't feel so bad staying at home sometimes...once in awhile.. once in a blue moon.. or maybe becos i had the hse more or less to myself and so there was nobody to nag me..
Im bored... i tink i'll go Mel's hse now..
Asphyxiated at at 12:44 AM
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Ever since the holidaes started, i've been out so much and at the most obscene of times. I enjoy myself tremendously each time- prata, marina south, clubbing, chilling, arcade, bowling, shopping, shangri-la, breakfast, mahjong, snooker etc etc... the list goes on but i think its starting to wear me out.. reach home in the morning when the sun has just come up, sleep for around 4 hours.. wake up.. and its another dae out.. until i get home in the morning.. and the cycle repeats itself.. either the hours are killing me or its the amount of nicotine and tar im consuming... come to think of it..i think its both.. and my alcohol intake does not makes things better one bit.
Results are out... my results are expected la.. supp papers here i come! Its funny how everyone else fears for my studies except myself. Im bo chup... i noe.. time to buck up.. -sigh-
The tarot card readings got me confused ALL OVER AGAIN!! Wat do i do now... i guess i'll just let nature take its course.. see which shit-hole i end up in finally..
Asphyxiated at at 5:37 PM
Monday, April 04, 2005
I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you babyand I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you babybut you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me
Asphyxiated at at 3:03 PM
Its been a damn long time since i last blogged. Thanks Kailing for changing my bogskin. Its too sweet for me though..and i dun rilly like butterflies but its nice and blue so its okie. Quite abit has been happening since i last blogged.. nothing big.. lets see wat i can squeeze out of my pathetic memory.. exams are over.. awaiting supp papers.. kailing got herself a bf-mr grenn *HAHA!* ...dan got himself a gf-the veri beautiful miss stone.. been miting mel a whole lot cos of certain circumstances-my hols,common frens,transport etc etc ..i was so bummed i couldn't stay long for her party but at least i managed to drop by and haf some potato salad -yummers- Before i forget.. HAPPIE BURFDAE TO ALL APRIL BABIES!! Wang Wang, Mel,Glenn,Sean,Jane,Victor etc..u noe who u r la...DUH.. its ur bdae..
Trying to club as much as possible before i start attachment... but gotta control my alcohol intake before i need a transplant.. wat else has been happening... Wang Wang's BBQ... He's an april fools baby and he celebrated on dat dae...wondered if anyone thot it was a joke..it was more like a Wang Wang Fan Club gathering.. bikes galore at 220..
Its been a pretty alrite holidae so far.. i dun expect it to be fab.. im content wif the wae tings are i guess.. i wish i could stop missing a particular person as much as i do though.. kinda hurts at times..
Asphyxiated at at 3:03 PM
