a s f i x i a d o

Thursday, March 30, 2006

I got a job oready. I dunno whether to be happy or not. Heard horror stories about the job only after i confirmed that i'll take it. The pros will be that it pays $9/hr & oso that i'm off on Thursdays which means i can club on Wednesdays. The cons are that i work on Saturdays which means i can't enjoy my Fridays & also that they are very strict about punctuality, which is something that is definately not my forte. I've been told its a highly stressful job & breaking the bond means i'll have to pay them back a certain (large) amount of money. The bond is until next Jan for f**k sake. I guess i'll have to shelf plans to go holidaying end of the year. And because it starts on 10Apr, i can't rot 3 full days at the chalet as i have planned. Dammit.

Asphyxiated at at 5:41 PM

It somehow din sink in that todae is Mambo Jambo until my yandao & Mel smsed me. I guess it's because today was one hell of a hectic day. Was up at 9am & ran around trying to get stuff done before meeting Jane & Rachel for shopping. We only walked Bugis Village & it was quite a horrible experience for me. I'm just not too fond of the place somehow. I like to shop in comfort. And i pay for quality. The 2 girls went on a rampage. Their feet were hurting so they bought shoes to change into before continuing shopping. They finally decided that we should go home only when all the shops closed. Can u imagine even then they were not done shopping? In Bugis Village Shopping Part II, please count me out. Its too hot & crowded for my liking.

The ex now knows i'm attached. He was sacarstic to me yesterday but has since repented & admitted that his tone was too harsh. I shall forgive him. I was fuming yesterday, but decided not to stoop to his level & argue with him. I'm glad he has calmed down & see that there is really nothing to be upset about. I guess i can sorta understand how he feels but now that he knows, i hope he can let go completely. Sometimes words just aint enuff. I can repeat myself a million times & it just doesn't register. They need to see things for themselves then they will jolt out of their state of denial & false hopes. Some guys are just like that.

Asphyxiated at at 12:24 AM

I realised that i have been too busy coveting material possessions that i have long forgotten to post a picture of baby Jovi for the world to see! Now isn't that a cutie? *Awwww* I still can't accept the fact that when he starts talking.. he's gonna call me 'Aunty' or 'God-Ma'.

Asphyxiated at at 12:11 AM

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

I can't wait to get this..
$5050
Ok mah hor.
*snigger*

Asphyxiated at at 3:22 PM

Logged onto Friendster and saw that he viewed my profile. I must admit it made me confused. Doesn't he oways. I dun think about him like how i used to anymore. Its just not worth it & i happen to be very happy with my life at present. I guess its bcos there's no closure. You know what im talking about? Its like you know its all in the past but there are just so many things left unanswered.

Im looking forward to next week. Tubs is off from Wed which means we are going Mambo! Then he'll have to bear with me for the rest of the week. Haha. April is a busy busy month. So many birthdays, too little money.

These are just afew things to look forward to during the upcoming month:

Wang Wang's birthday (which coincidentally falls on April Fool's day. Lolx)- 1st
My dearest cuzzie Mel's birthday (I take comfort in the fact that you'll oways be older than me!)- 2nd
Sean Carson's birthday (I'll try to make sure you get the mag one way or another k)- 3rd
Singapore Idol Boot Camp (Which means Mel can't Mambo with me & Tubs)- 4th-6th
Baby Boy's birthday (2nd time i'm celebrating your bdae with you, only this year i'm all yours)- 5th
Tourism Chalet (I have a bad feeling i'm gonna smoke more than i should during this chalet)- 10th-12th
Aunty Corina's birthday- 12th
Jane's birthday (You want a hermit crab for your bdae? Haha) -13th
Benny's bithday (Which oso falls on Good Friday)- 14th
Victor's birthday (Old Old Old!)- 26th

Im sure there are other stuff but you know my memory lah. Haha

Asphyxiated at at 12:53 PM

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

I was being a busybosy, going through some friendster accounts, when i came across a particular person's account. I looked through her fotos & i realised that she knew another one of my friends. I dunno if the world is really that small or maybe she's just the whore that i thought she was all along. But it just brought back some unpleasant memories & i miss Ryan all over again. Its been around 1/2 a year since Ryan's very sudden death. I still can't bring myself to delete his contact from my hp.. he's still in my friendster account... I noe some things can't be changed but this girl just makes everything come rushing back. Burn bitch, just burn.

Asphyxiated at at 4:44 PM

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Procrastination is like Masturbation.
It feels good till you realize you've just fucked yourself.
You wouldn't believe where i got that from. Haha.

Asphyxiated at at 5:01 PM

Friday, March 17, 2006

I've been having insomnia. Sleepless in Siglap is what i call it. TV is boring & i've run out of things to surf on the net.
I realised that i lost my resume & i'm pissed cos my records are pretty complicated & it'll take me forever to rewrite it. I've set my sights on afew jobs.. aren't you guys proud of me? Jasmine the bummer is actually thinking of getting down to finding a job. Haha.
Rach bought a Husky today. I'm soooo jealous.. but i'm thankful i've got Heidi. Shall not be greedy. Going to her house to see the dog later in the day & buy dog neccessities. At least i have some plans instead of rotting at home the whole day because i noe that going out would mean spending $. Such is my life.
I kinda regret not going Zouk yesterday. Dun get me wrong. I love my Mambo. I have been loving it for donkey years. I noe.. its a sad reminder how old i am. But the main reason why i wanted to go was cos i was bored as hell at home.. not bcos i felt like clubbing. I guess going too often kinda spoils things.

Asphyxiated at at 2:01 AM

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

OMG.. online window shopping is driving me absolutely crazy. I wanna get a million & one things lor. I've got my eyes on a couple of T's, skirts & jeans from Abercrombie & Hollister. I shall not even mention the rest.. this should be my motivation to get off my fat ass & get a job!
Shall post a few fotos me & tubs took last week. Haha. Never thought he could actually convince me to dig out my uniform again but since he brought his uniform all the way to my place, i can't dissappoint him rite. Anywae its been awhile since i last posted fotos in my blog & its juz for laughs. Please stop with the 'wah!role play..' comments.. trust my closest frens to say such things.. *tsk tsk*

Asphyxiated at at 3:17 AM

Asphyxiated at at 3:07 AM

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL!
Omg.. u r 23 years old oready! Haha. I love u girl & thanx for being sucha good fren since we were Pri 1!
Moving on, the past couple of days were great. Mainly cos i had *YOUR* company. Last Wed's Zouk wif Dan & gang was fun, especially when darl 'accidentally' elbowed some bitch in the eye & it was oso hilarious to see some drunkard puke all over the computer.
Saturday was off to Momo for Angel's birthday while darl went Liquid Room with Alex for some kiddo party. Haha. Went down wif Jes to MS to meet darl for bak kut teh after i was done. Mich took some rilly hilarious videos at Momo.. it ought to be posted online man.. A gay guy grinding the bdae girl, a desperate girl humping her bored bf & oso Athena shaking her ass... its stuff u gotta see for urself la.

Asphyxiated at at 4:35 PM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

I think i seriously must find a job soon. Bumming at home is making me think of rubbishy things that i dun even wanna mention. Complaining to Rachie on msn now. Lucky she can use msn even though she's at work & she's a good person to whine to. The sun is horrible & i'm supposed to walk out & transfer $ to tubs. I'm gonna sulk again. I rilly hate the sun la. Everyone noes that.
The ex asked me to go Bangkok/ Redang wif him. Wassup wif him.. sometimes i really dunno what he's thinking.

Asphyxiated at at 3:51 PM

Monday, March 06, 2006

Dig if u will the picture
Of u and I engaged in a kiss
The sweat of your body covers me
Can u my darling
Can u picture this?
Dream if u can a courtyard
An ocean of violets in bloom
Animals strike curious poses
They feel the heat
The heat between me and u
How can u just leave me standing?
Alone in a world that's so cold?
Maybe I'm just too demanding
Maybe I'm just like my father too bold
Maybe you're just like my mother
She's never satisfied
Why do we scream at each other
This is what it sounds like
When doves cry
Touch if u will my stomach
Feel how it trembles inside
You've got the butterflies all tied up
Don't make me chase u
Even doves have pride

Asphyxiated at at 10:03 PM

As broke as i am, i have been going out everyday but i shall try to be a good girl & stay home today. Mandy asked me to go ktv-ing but i decided not to even though i'm so very tempted to. Its not like i sing. I just find the need to get out of the house. My ktv sessions are quite standard - Pay shitloads just to drink, smoke, listen to people sing for me & sometimes take a nap, all in the comfort of an aircon room.
I fear i'll go out tonite... den i'll have to take a cab home.. which means spending $ again.. but home is getting unbearable.. i guess the easy way out is to just get a job but... aiyah i dunno lah...

Asphyxiated at at 5:35 PM

Push me
And then just touch me
Till I can get my satisfaction

Asphyxiated at at 5:18 PM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

It was fun at Dan & Sharon's housewarming yesterday. Oways great to gather & just talk cock. Main topics of the nite = tampons & a particular someone from TP. Shall not disclose who.. just someone i'm not too fond of. Even though i dunno her well, its obvious how attention seeking she is & how highly she thinks of herself. I shall not even go into detail how erm.. Pre-pubescent she looks. Nothing personal.
Something happened on Tuesday. I just blew up. I still feel its somewhat different. I dunno. I guess we'll just have to see how it goes.. maybe its just not being able to talk face to face that's not helping things. I do try to be tolerant. But maybe thats not such a good idea cos in the end, i just lose it big time & it just goes down hill from there. You being mean & cold doesn't help things either. We both noe we've got horrid tempers. But i din noe it was this bad until we clashed. I fear we'll either kill each other if not our relationship.

Asphyxiated at at 4:30 PM

Friday, March 03, 2006

It was a good girl's nite out on wed. Hope the birthday girl had fun! It was good to see my dearest cuzzie too. Its been only 2 weeks since i last saw her been it seemed like 4ever.. gotta update her dis sunday about me being mistreated by a certain someone. Ahem. Haha. As broke as i am, i have been out everyday. Can't blame me rite.. there's rilly nth much for me to do at home especially when im not on speaking terms with the mother monster. Been meeting my KC dearies abit excessively. I've been at parkway almost everyday lor! Its time u girls come down to siglap even though i noe im the one dat has all the time in the world.
Anywaez, i gotta run.. meeting Ling at Suntec for Career Fair but we both noe its just another excuse to go shopping or something. Ha!

Asphyxiated at at 1:08 PM

Bang Bang,
He shot me down
Bang Bang,
I hit the ground
Bang Bang,
That awful sound
Bang Bang,
My baby shot me down

Asphyxiated at at 1:06 PM