Sunday, April 30, 2006
Over at tubs house rite now. This is gonna be another uneventful weekend. I havent shopped in ages man. No thanks to the 2 of us being 4eva tired.. Tubs came over to look for me on Friday nite & the only place we went on Saturday was Gelang to eat You Tiao, Mian Xian & Soya Bean den we headed to his place. Fell asleep, woke up ard 1am, ate noodles, watched tv til morning, went back to sleep, woke up, ate lunch, and nw both of us r on the com. I noe 2moro is a public holiday but tubs has to go back camp..
The progress package money came at the rite time. It was much needed man. At least it can tide me thru til my pay comes in.
Thursday was super tiring. Went down to support Mel after work. Many thanks to Mandy & Kailing for their support as well! It was much appreciated. Love u girls!
Asphyxiated at at 2:13 PM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
I'm feeling so tired that i came home straight after work. All thanks to going drinking last nite. Had Hoegaarden & god noes how many bottles of red wine at Alley Bar to celebrate Jessman & Elaine's birthday. Managed to catch up abit with Ling before she started work so that was good.
I was hungry like hell today cos i din eat anything the whole of yesterday. Thank goodness my alcohol intake is still pretty decent after so long of not going for solid drinking sessions on top of me having an empty stomach.
Work was boring beyond words today. I dun even noe wat to say.
I'm in a fix now. After the big hoo-haa about my mum giving my dog away & me having a cold war wif her which resulted in a full-fledged shouting match, she has asked me if i want the dog back. To many people, it would be like 'what is there to think about?' But it has really drained me out. Now that i've started work, its impossible to commit fully to taking care of all the dog's needs. I need some help. And i wun be getting any help. It's my full responsiblility. That bitch is playing me like a puppet. She noes bloody well what a spot im in. If i have a gun, i think i'd most probably shoot her.
Asphyxiated at at 7:02 PM
Monday, April 24, 2006
I had a crappy day todae. In fact, the whole weekend felt pretty crappy. I dunno why. I just feel depressed. I nearly started tearing on the way home in the bus just now but i held it back. I hate crying & being in public just makes it worse. I hate it thats there's no particular reason. I guess it's just me holding back too many emotions & not releasing it is breaking me. I hope it gets better.
Asphyxiated at at 12:21 AM
Friday, April 21, 2006
OMG i'm so bloody bored. I should have gone out with my colleagues after work la. I've been looking forward to the weekend for the longest time & now that it's here, i'm at home. Tubs is at home doing i dunno what. The worst thing is that i had plans. But i turned all of them down cos i din noe i wun be meeting him until it was so late -haiz- Somebody kill me.
Seanie boy called me just now to chat while he was on his way to work & he was so horrid to me. What happened to the sweetie that oways gave in to me? Haha. So crude & all now *tsk tsk* And dun try to be Mr Noe-it-all lor. "Never say never" Bleah! I never said never lor.. it was phrased differently. Now wanna put words in my mouth & all. Anyway would have loved to chat with him longer but it wasn't convenient just now so...
Gotta go back school on Monday, which means i'll have to go work later, which means my pay is gonna be abit lesser. Dammit.
Asphyxiated at at 9:13 PM
Work ended early today so i went town wif some of the guys until it was time to meet tubs. I like all my colleagues so much. They are such a fun bunch & it's gonna suck when we all split in another 2 weeks or so.
I can't wait for my progress package money or my pay to come in. I'm fuck broke. Are you guys sick & tired of hearing me whine about how broke i am oready? I can't help it. I've been living off tubs for the longest time. I've even resorted to smoking disgusting indo marlboros & mild7 from japan. They both suck to the core but i'm that desperate. And oh, quitting is not an option. It's not that easy i guess. I'd rather not eat.
When i get $, there are so many things i wanna do. Firstly im gonna dump some $ into the 'future fund' cos rite up to the time whereby i actually deposit $ into that account, its pretty much a one-man show. But that aside.. its personal stuff anyway. Nothing that will interest anybody.
Other things i'm gonna do is get a new hair cut & dye job, manicure, shopping, watch all the movies i feel like watching, eat whatever i've been craving for, take cabs.... it doesn't sound too much rite.. actually it sounds like how i used to live.. thats until i somehow became shit broke. I have a feeling i wun be able to do everything i wanna do with my first pay cheque so i guess some things will just have to wait. Its not like i'm earning alot but i guess its gonna keep me comfortable at least.
Asphyxiated at at 12:01 AM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Its Wednesday & i'm at home. I'm not even gian to go Zouk somehow. Maybe cos i woke up late today & had to take a cab to work when i'm oready very broke. Therefore i'm determined not to repeat the same mistake tomorrow & i shall stay put at home.
I've asked some of u guys if u all wanted tickets to
Singapore Idol piano show next week. I noe its really last minute but i got the info last minute myself so its not my fault! For those who want the tickets, you do noe i din get u free tix to cheer for other people rite. You can only cheer for
Melissa Loo. If not, go get ur own tickets & sit somewhere else. For those who are not going for one reason or another, please vote for her when it starts airing on TV k. This is not a desperate plea. I'm so supportive of my cuzzie cos i KNOW she is that good. Judge for urself.
Asphyxiated at at 10:53 PM
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
I dunno why but now & then, i question myself about who my real friends are. I noe sometimes i just get into one of my lousy moods but then again, if there's nothing to justify how i feel, i wouldn't even be feeling that way right? Paranoia has a limit for me. I'm pretty rational most of the time.
I'm not gonna name names here, whether those people read my blog or not. I'm not here to pin-point & accuse people. I just wanna let off some steam. It's my blog anyways. Coming back to the topic proper, i was quite upset when someone did not turn up for a particular occasion when that person was told way before hand about it & he had even confirmed his attendance.
I do wonder what kind of friend you are. Am i supposed to call you only when i wanna go out & have fun? Do you call me when u wanna go out & have fun or when u need help?
There are so many instances i could name about what other things are bugging me but i'd rather not. I dun wanna worsen an oready deteriorating friendship. How you prioritise things is not within my control, and probably non of my concern, but just a gentle reminder that if in time u realise that u have lost a friend, dun point fingers at others, and dun feel sore, for it may have been your own doing all this while but maybe u were just too caught up in ur own world to have noticed.
I'm sure im not the only one that feels that way. Some people have oready washed their hands off u. Dun take ur friends for granted for i can see clearly who are worthy of my time & care. True frens are the ones that will stick wif u for a long long time to come & they are the ones you'll fall back on when shit happens. When it comes to a point when u realise that u dun have real frens, i dun wanna be the one to tell u 'I told u so'.
I oways set aside time for my frens. Some people think just bcos i'm attached means i dun have time for them. All i can say is u dun noe me that well, do u? If u never asked me out & u assume that i'm not free, i guess u r just finding an excuse for urself.
Nevertheless, there are those frens who have stuck by me for years & years & i'm so thankful for them. Unpretentious & oways there when i need them. I'm so tempted to give them credit here but i guess listing names would only narrow down the field of finding out who is the 'chief suspect'.
I wanna note that i'm not specifically picking on a particular person. Its just a very general thought that i find disturbing. Many people are gonna speculate about who i'm talking about, some may even think i'm talking about themselves. All i can say is that i'm not gonna give any answers & if u can even suspect that im referring to yourself, maybe its time to reflect on what kind of a fren r u?
Asphyxiated at at 1:00 AM
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Thank goodness Friday was a public holiday. It was a much needed break from work & for me to catch up on some sleep. Headed down to Tiger's place after work to prepare for the steamboat. It was one crazy dinner. There was far too much food & i have no idea how we managed to eat cake after dat. Anyway, i hope the bday girl had fun & liked her pressie. Watched Wolf Creek DVD wif Jane while the rest played mj. I hate the show. All gore & no story line. Kelvin dropped me & tubs home after dat & i slept til the next afternoon. Showered, then headed to tub's granny's hse for dinner. Was bored so we headed to Orchard, which was pretty aimless cos we ended up not doing much when the initial plan was to go drinking or watch a movie. How i miss my beer.. Headed back after dat & we went over to Alex's hse, played dai di & watched DVD til ard 6am. Now its oready Saturday -whines- I can't get enuff of the weekend lah.
Asphyxiated at at 4:29 PM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Overslept today. Woke up at 0745, left the hse in a hurry, only to be stuck in a massive jam on the ECP. Reached work a tad late but its all good.
Had a showdown with the bitch. It took up loads of my energy man. I shall not go into details but it was one long shouting match. She ended up apologising for a couple of things & she wanted to give me the number of the person who took Heidi but somehow, i dun feel any better. I still hate her. Even though work has started for me, it's still unbearable being at home & all the more so when i see her. I hate arguing wif her cos she's a dumb & stubborn bitch & the only that happens each time is dat it juz gets me even more frustrated.
Asphyxiated at at 11:25 PM
Headed down to the chalet straight after work. Good to see everyone again even though i think the amount we had to pay was pretty high, considering i went hardly for a couple of hours & barely consumed $5 worth of food & drinks but what the heck lah. It was quite a good gathering. My only complaint would be the location. It was totally out of the way.
Short entry i noe, but i'm tired lah.. how long is it gonna take me to adjust to my working hours? *sigh*
Asphyxiated at at 12:10 AM
Monday, April 10, 2006
First day of work is so tiring.. i hardly did anything cos it was only training so basically i only sit there & listen the whole day but i missed my bed so much. There's test 2moro & i noe nuts lor. I've had enuff of school & nw i need to go for classroom training & sit for tests with 85% as passing mark.
Went to Marina Square with tubs & we pigged out at Carl's Jr. Both of us were shit tired & he suggested sending me home. I was so happy to hear that.. i din wanna pass out in public..
Bloody hell, i can't even blog properly now.. my brain is not functioning properly, i can't seem to control my fingers & my eyes are gonna shut any moment. 2moro is yet another day where i'll have to wake up at 6am. What the f**k did i get myself into? I should be at Aloha Loyang Garden Bungalow 4 having a good time rite now lor.
Asphyxiated at at 11:36 PM
Saturday, April 08, 2006
I'm feeling a little grumpy rite now. Maybe cos i'm bored, maybe cos i'm still hung up about what happened to Heidi, maybe cos the weekend is ending too soon & i gotta start work early monday morning, maybe cos Mr Ang even thot about leaving me alone at his place while he goes to play mj. I dunno lah.
Asphyxiated at at 10:33 PM
Friday, April 07, 2006
My mum gave Heidi away. Yes its true. I wouldn't dream about joking when it comes to such things. My close frens would be as shocked as how i was at first when i got home on wednesday afternoon to find my dog missing. I dun wanna go into details here cos its gonna be obscenely vulgar & some people may be apalled at the words that i may use to describe my sentiments towards my mother. Lets just say she knew how dear the dog was to me. Fuck. The dog was the only reason home was bearable. It did not help that she did not have the decency to notify me before conveniently giving my dog away. It was shock at first, followed by anger, then i brawled my eyes out. Now its hatred at its purest form. She has been constantly trying her luck with me & i guess it has run out.
Thank god for darl who was with me when i found out. I have been staying at his place since & he has been really comforting. Im still at abit of a loss at what im gonna do. It seems like i cant do anything but at the same time, i feel like im just running away from it. I can't fucking believe it. What did i do to deserve such a mother.
Asphyxiated at at 4:29 AM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
The weather has been crazy these few days. I can't decide whether to bring out the brolly everytime i go out. I hate taking the brolly but i hate it even more when i get caught in the rain. Today's thunderstorm was horrible but i think it has died down somewhat. It better! I have to make my way down to AMK.
Angel asked me to go Thumper.. its been a long while since i last went but i'll have to give it a miss.. Unless tubs does something stupid like have another one of his impromptu mj sessions den i shall go! Nvm. Shall just look forward to Mambo 2moro.
Asphyxiated at at 4:58 PM
Tell me, did you sail across the sunDid you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all fadedAnd that heaven is overrated Tell me, did you fall for a shooting starOne without a permanent scarAnd did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there
Asphyxiated at at 1:39 AM
Monday, April 03, 2006
I can't sleep again -sigh- The coming week is gonna pass rilly quickly & den i'm gonna start work oready. Bcos its office hours, i'll have rilly little time to spend at the chalet. Bummer. Watched Keeping Mum on Sat nite. It was an alrite show.. i rilly wanna watch Ice Age 2 though. Enjoyed the first one alot. Been over eating these few days but it was worth it. Went Turf City wif tubs & his family for dinner on Saturday after going for Singapore Fashion Festival wif the girls. Service was f**ked up & there were so many insects flying around & dropping into the food & drinks. It grossed me out totally but food was good lah. Had pasta for lunch the next day, thanks to tubs. I love his cooking lah. Soon after dat headed down to granny's & had noodles for dinner. It was so yummy & it din end there becos there was Mel's bday cake from Secret Recipe. Oh gosh. I totally pigged out lor. But like i care..
Asphyxiated at at 2:53 AM
