Thursday, May 18, 2006
I rilly dislike going to O Bar. The crowd there turns me off. It oways has. Loads of wannabes & despos. The only reason why i went yesterday was for my colleagues & thanks Mandy for coming down to join me. It was much appreciated. I was shit tired yesterday. I thought my legs were gonna give way.
I think i over smsed Ronny. My bills ain't gonna be funny.. so much for smsing overseas.
I am mentally exhausted. I'm crossing my fingers that dis weekend is gonna be good or i swear i'll go mad. I hate it when my work life & private life decides to screw me up at the same time. Its just testing my sanity.
Sometimes u do & say the sweetest things but at times when i really need u ard, u dun seem to be there. Or even worse, u say things that makes me feel worse than how i am oready feeling. I do wonder if there is a clash in personality or age or something. There are such extreme feelings & emotions that when it turns ugly, its fucking bad.
I dunno what to say anymore. I've got work 2moro & i hope i dun lose it during work. I dun even noe what to do to make myself feel better. I can't go on crying forever
Asphyxiated at at 11:34 PM
