I think the heavens is giving me a sign not to shop. Firstly, i have zilch income now. Secondly, when i went to Mango yesterday, there was a mad sale & the bag i wanted so badly was nowhere to be found. Thirdly, when i went Zara to find my skirt, they marked the price up heaps. When i first saw the skirt, it was $25. When i saw it yesterday, it was $77 but slashed to $55. People, do u see what the sneaky ppl at Zara have done? They are out to cheat you & there are still shit-loads of people thinking it's a wonderful bargain. Haha. Whatever. It's a sign for me not to spend $ on shopping.
Later is Grandpa's birthday dinner. Food glorious food!
On a more serious note, my deepest condolences to Ling & her family. Remember your friends are always around for you & you'll be alrite soon!
Asphyxiated at at 2:51 PM
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Asphyxiated at at 1:55 PM
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Asphyxiated at at 3:58 PM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Yan Dao is gg BKK this Saturday. I wanna go holiday too!
Yuan is right. I'm eating & sleeping too much. Time to go on a diet. Ha!
I hope this week is a good one.
I wanna see the pictures we took on Sunday. Guess that'll haf to wait til Yuan books out during the weekend.
I hope Kailing has a good trip. Lucky woman!
This is all so random. Can you tell i'm bored?
From Mandy's blog:
MAD section*
1. what do you do when you're mad
I either keep very quiet or all hell breaks loose. Not a pretty sight.
2. what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
Nothing really bad as far as i can remember. Maybe small things like adding detergent to someone else's drink when i was waitressing years back.
3. ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
Yup. The things that come out of my mouth. Tsk Tsk.
4. ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?
Oh yeah. I think it was a deserving slap & i'm sure that person won't make the same mistake a second time.
5. do you curse when you're mad?
Are you f**king kidding me? I curse even when i'm not mad
Crying Section*
1. last time you cried your heart out ?
I cry now & then but crying my heart out has to be ard 2 years ago? It was horrid.
2. ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yup. I try not to though. I'll wake up looking horrendous.
3. ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
Yes. I thank god for all my frens who are oways there for me during rough patches.
4. do you cry when you get an injury?
Nah. Probably i haven't gotten an injury that was that painful. And i hope i'll never.
5. do certain songs make you cry?
Nope. Some songs make me reminisce & evoke certain emotions but not til i cry.
Pain Section*
1. what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?
I dun think i've ever regretted any of my decisions so i dunno how to answer this question.
2. how depressed can you get?
Erm.. enuff to make me feel really low & cry but not enuff to make me wanna kill myself.
Happy Section*
1. how much do u smile?
Quite alot. Thanks to all the wonderful people around me.
2. what can make you happy?
Many things.
3. do you wish you were happier?
Of cos. Not that i'm at an unhappy point now. But happiness is something i'll never have enuff of.
4. what about being with your friends, does that make u happy?
Absolutely. They are one constant source of my happiness.
Love Section*
1. have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?
Depends on the situation i guess. Possible though.
2. did you ever love a person, and tell him/her that you love him/her?
Of cos. Maybe just not as often as they wish i would. I'm not very vocal when it comes to such things but i'm sure they know through my actions & other words.
3.have you loved someone so much, it made you cry?
Yes.
4.has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?
Yup -smiles-
Hate Section*
1. have you ever hated any one that broke your heart?
At a certain point i guess.. then it just passes
2. do you hate Bush?
Maybe? But he's a funny dude. Choking on a pretzel & fainting, falling off a bike thingy, spelling "potatoe". The list goes on.
Self-Esteem Section*
1. is your self-esteem extremely low?
Nope
2. do you believe in yourself?
I guess. I dunno who else to believe in if i dun believe in myself
3. what do you say when people say they think you are good looking/pretty?
I usually just smile
4. are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?
Whether i'm ugly or not is up to u to judge. I maybe fat but i'm definately not dumb. Try me.
5. ever wanted to kill yourself cuz you thought you weren't good enough?
Never
6. are you happy with who you are?
I'll go with yes. Shall not be greedy & ask for too much cos i noe i could be in a worse state than what i am at present.
Asphyxiated at at 12:05 AM
Monday, June 26, 2006
Met up wif Yuan, Ling & Mandy at Bugis. Good to see Yuan is doing great. He's got a tan & some new muscles. Haha. But his eye bags are horrid! Hope he gets enuff rest & can't wait to see him soon again.
Spoke of going KTV sometimes soon. Mandy go plan k! Soon tons of places wun allow smoking. I guess i will have to find solace in KTVs. They still allow smoking in KTVs rite?? I noe at hawker centres & al fresco areas, there are oready the 'Smoking Area' sign & yellow box. Can i just say thats one of the dumbest ideas ever? I agree smoking shouldn't be encouraged but this is like demeaning & ostracising smokers. Whatever.
The Singapore government pisses me off sometimes. I shall not turn this into some political issue even though there are certain things the government has done & said which rendered me speechless & wide-eyed in disbelief. People can openly make so much noise about something as trivial as a Miss Singapore contestant saying something not very smart (omg i dun even wanna go there. poor girl u. im sure u were so nervous. i'll juz choose to believe that u said those things to make ppl laugh on purpose k) but when our own government makes certain statements, people dun dare to speak up. And i'm referring to comments which are so uncalled for & simply shows how petty & childish they are. I'm not even gonna quote them.
I guess they do try to spare a thought for everyone. Singapore is not declared a smoke-free country yet. Now they just put smokers in small corners within yellow boxes. I'm so grateful & oh-so-touched. Is this what you call an autocratic democracy?
Asphyxiated at at 1:37 AM
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Asphyxiated at at 3:58 PM
Friday, June 23, 2006
Can we go for a big meal tonight when you come back from work? Haha.
Tubs can't come out today AGAIN. Boo Hoo.
Here's one for the BF.
I love you even though you are oways so rude & mean to me. But being me, you should noe better than to push your luck boy.
Asphyxiated at at 5:56 PM
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Couldn't decide whether to look for Dan but we did in the end. There were only 2 of us anywayz. And the birthday boy wasn't dat better off either.. he was only with Sharon & Adelene. Thanks to the mad crowd, i din get to meet up wif Mel. The ironic thing was, i saw her 2 ex's which weren't there wif her. Not that it bothered me though. One helped me pave the way to the dancefloor & another offered me cigs. Haha. All at Mel's expense! Its been a bloody long time since i last saw her man.
And guess wat peeps! Dan can't hold his liquor very well anymore. Tsk tsk. After Zouk he wanted to eat Bak Kut Teh & on the way to my place, he actually had to stop to puke. Hahahahaha. Thats a taste of his own medicine. He nearly killed me with tequila overload on my 21st. Now is his turn.
Anyone wants Wardrobe2006 invites? I dun need them. Just ask k.
Oh. Speaking about Zouk, Gel asked me the other day if i'm going for Femme Quest finals. I dunno? See how k.
Asphyxiated at at 4:47 PM
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Who is this man that's got me smitten for the past god-noes-how-many years?
Valentino Rossi of cos!
Asphyxiated at at 3:31 PM
Monday, June 19, 2006
Sunday was pretty much laze-in-bed day. Until i suggested going town for a walk. Damned suggestion. I saw a Zara skirt & a Mango bag that i wanna buy so badly, which reminded me of my current financial situation, which got me in a not so good mood.
So, who wants to buy that bag & skirt for me? I accept cash too u know.
Asphyxiated at at 2:26 AM
Saturday, June 17, 2006
Me & tubs were supposed to go Dunman Food Centre for some Frogs' Leg Porridge but since my folks were gonna eat Yong Tau Foo nearby, we decided to follow them, have something light, then go & eat porridge. BUT we were to stuffed after dat so we shelved our porridge plans once again.
Jane & Tiger picked us up around 11pm & we went to Kallang Macs. Eat again. Headed to Cathay after that to watch Silent Hill. Got a popcorn combo which we couldn't even finish eating. After the movie, Tiger suggested eating (yes, again) & we ended up eating at Geylang You Tiao place. Oh man. It din help dat right after eating, we went home & slept cos tubs was tired plus he had to wake up bloody early to go back camp. I think he barely slept 3 hours.
I woke up feeling oh so sick & i think i need my stomach pumped.
Asphyxiated at at 5:34 PM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
What's that playing on the radio,
why do I start swaying to and fro
I have never heard that song before,
but if I don't hear it anymore
It's still familiar to me, sends a thrill right through me
Cause those chords remind me of the night that
I first fell in love to
Those magic changes my heart arranges
A melody that's never the same,
a melody that's calling your name
It begs you please, come back to me
Please, return to me, don't go away again,
oh make them play again
The music I wanna hear is once again,
you whisper in my ear
Oh my darling, aha I'll be waiting by the radio,
you'll come back to me someday, I know
Been so long since our last goodbye, but I'm singin' as I cry
While the bass is sounding, while the drums are pounding
Beatings of my broken heart will rise the first place of the charts
Oh my heart arranges, oh those magic changes,
oooh yeah
Asphyxiated at at 5:05 PM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Asphyxiated at at 9:19 PM
So, i've been blasting Mambo Jambo music at home the entire afternoon. Hopefully i'll get sick of it so i wun feel so sore that i'm not going.
But all the Blame it on the Boogie's, Lucky Lucky Lucky's, Summer of 69's, Summer Rain's & the whole works are just making me more gian. I'm going mad!
Asphyxiated at at 5:02 PM
Monday, June 12, 2006
Asphyxiated at at 6:29 PM
Saturday nite, went Cafe Cartel for dinner with the folks but Mick wasn't there yet so headed home first den walked out again when she reached. Managed to chat with her awhile before tubs picked me up after he was done at East Coast. Decided to go Geylang for some You Tiao but Jane called offering to pick us up for supper. Sucha darling. But since we were oready at the busstop, we bought a drink from 7-11 & walked over to Siglap Centre kopi shop to wait for her. It was a good thing too cos when we left the house, tubs insisted that there was no need to bring a brolly out but it was drizzling throughout the entire nite lor! Anywayz, we ended up going to Changi Village for Nasi Lemak before heading to Tampines to meet Da Chix & Deborah. Sat at some coffee shop & basically just chatted.. ok more like gossipped.. the entire nite before going home.
Sunday was plain slack. Woke up, showered, had lunch, watched abit of TV, fell asleep, went Geylang for You Tiao, Soya Bean drink & Mian Xian, headed to tub's place for him to take his stuff, den headed home while he went back camp.
Geylang is a horrendous place. Bcos we took a bus there, we had to walk abit & there were so many dirty old men around. They even resorted to standing at the overhead bridge just to look at those prostitutes. Pathetic people. I ought to bring my digi cam out & snap their pictures for everyone to see. That place makes me sick lah. But i like the food there. Oh well. Thank goodness we hopped into a cab once we were done eating.
Asphyxiated at at 2:31 AM
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Yesterday was a good girls' nite out. Went to Babyface at Fullerton for some beer & to chill & catch up before heading down to Devils for more drinks & some dancing. Sorry to Edrickson & the rest of the peeps. I oready agreed to meet up wif my GFs or else i rilly would have joined u guys at OBar (though i still insist that i dun like the place one bit).
Its Saturday & tubs is still in camp. He'll only be out in the evening & he's dropping by his fren's BBQ later so by the time i meet him, it'll be rilly late and the Saturday is just gonna pass like that. Its a real bummer.
Asphyxiated at at 1:57 PM
Thursday, June 08, 2006
I'm not pissed at anyone in particular. I've no reason to be. Its just me i guess. I hate having my plans disrupted at such a last minute.
Why am i not going anymore? Cos the BF is still in camp. I think SAF better wake up their idea. I'm fuck pissed lor. The BF is pissed too so i think its better we just leave each other alone til he is done den see if he wants to meet for dinner or something.. that is if he even has time to come out.
As much as i don't say it, i do hate NS life. My past 3 consecutive BFs were NS boys & even though i noe their NS life weren't the worst ever, along the way certain things bugged me & i never wanted to bring it up cos i din wanna spoil their oready low morale & oso cos there was nothing they could do about it. All i looked forward to was for them to finish their NS.
I guess when there's nothing i can do, i'm thankful for all my frens. Yesterday was one crazy & fun KTV sesion. More than 5 hours spent there with Mandy, Ling, Kailing, Huiting, Qi Yuan & Nelson & trust me, it felt much shorter than 5 hours. Took shitloads of fotos, non of which i looked nice in so other than a group shot for the sake of it, i shall not post the rest of the pix.
I shall be looking forward to a girls' nite out 2moro. Time & Venue to be confirmed!
Asphyxiated at at 6:07 PM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
I guess she'll be at a disadvantage as the other girls are either pretty good or have the looks & not to mention the other girls in her group had so much publicity! Mel has the voice & the looks but it was a waste there wasn't too much publicity for her.
I've been hearing Mel sing since we were little girls & all i can say is that she has been consistently good. Its only deserving that she has gotten this far & i think she has everything to go even further, which is not possible without everyone's support so please vote k.
Here's a parting shot. Love ya cuzzie!
Asphyxiated at at 12:25 AM
Sunday, June 04, 2006
You say i dun show you concern when you are sick. Maybe i told you to stay home & rest? Or why dun you just go think about what you do when I fall sick. You dun do anything. At most you feel irritated when i'm having a bad throat & you ask me to clear my throat. Or i can be coughing my lungs out & you are just simply oblivious to it. Go figure.
You told me you'll call me back after doing something. I waited & you did not call back that's why i had to call you & you had oready decided not to meet me. I'll just take it that you forgot or something k.
Asphyxiated at at 5:00 PM
I dunno lah. I'm just so pek chek now. I guess its just me. I dun wanna start another arguement. I just need to get out of my house rite now.
Asphyxiated at at 3:38 PM
I wanna go Zouk's Flea & Easy pretty badly but i'll be so extra if i go wif Jane & Tiger. Asked tubs if he wanted to go but he said his knee hurts & that he'll meet me after dat so i decided not to go. Nvm, there's oways the next Flea & Easy.
I hope everybody's Sunday is better than mine!
Asphyxiated at at 3:14 PM
Let me continue with what happened after my previous blog. By the time he came home, i had fallen asleep. When i woke up, he was watching DVD. I got changed & we headed to Junction8, silent throughout the entire journey. We caught a glimspe of Mel but i was so not in the mood to go & get involved in all that Idol hoo-haa. Bumped into Jes & all i could manage was a quick 'hi'. Went out for a smoke & he asked me whats wrong. I rilly wanted to run into a wall. Whats wrong? Isn't it obvious as hell? Anyway, i told him what's wrong & his conclusion was that i dun go over to his place anymore to prevent the same thing from happening. I wanted to walk off at that moment but i forced myself to stay & see what else he had to say. I mean i understand family is important but when i am put down at the extreme end, its really hard to stomach. Am i that insignificant to him? Cos if i am, i really gotta reconsider this whole relationship.
Anywayz, he apologised after that & said it wun happen again. I hope not. By that time, Mel had oready left for MediaCorp & i finally got to see the hermit crabs, which i had wanted to do so for the longest time but it kept being put off. It was quite a waste of time seeing those hermit crabs. They looked pretty darn gross.
We headed to Suntec after that & ate at Kuishin-Bo. It's been a long time since i was this full. I swear i nearly threw up but i'm not complaining. The food is good & it was hilarious seeing kiasu Singaporeans rushing to queue everytime the 'special' came out. Usually its for the first 30 people to queue & everytime the announcement was made, people practically jump from their tables & run to the counter. I am not kidding. Funny as it may be, i think they are pretty phatetic. Walked around abit before heading home as the BF had to head back to camp. Screw NS life. Its a Saturday for fuck sake.
Mandy smsed me a little to late. I had oready showered or i would have met her. I'm so bored i swear. It almost feels like a Sunday..
Asphyxiated at at 12:18 AM
Saturday, June 03, 2006
We were watching TV after i just washed my hair & his dad asked him if he wanted to go view cars. He told his dad to let him go get changed first & he continued watching TV. So i asked him if he shld go get ready & he brushed me off saying his dad was just kidding. Then he decided to double check & he came back asking if i needed a hair dryer. At this point i am pissed oready. Firstly, i hate such last minute plans & in the first place, he did not even ask me if i wanted to go. I hate rushing to get ready so i told him to just go ahead with his dad & i'll either wait for him at his place or i'll just let myself out. He said nvm, he'll tell his dad that he wun go & said that i din haf to get ready though i had oready started. He went down, came back up & told me he'll be back in half an hour. He could tell i was pissed & all he could say was that we were going Bishan after all later cos it was our initial plan. He so doesn't get it lor. Its not about bcos we are going Bishan so he can do whatever he pleases lor. He doesn't even spare a thought for me. Its not even the first time this is happening. I think its absolutely absurd. But whatever, i told him we'll talk about it when he comes back & he just leaves like that. I'll never make plans for people & take it for granted that they'll agree to it so i dun see why he should do this to me. I wonder what will happen if i just walked off. Some things i can put up with, for example his NS life. I tell myself to bear with his inconsistent hours but this is just too personal. It seems like he can't decide between me & doing something he likes. Maybe he's still really young but i am just consoling myself? The situation is so obvious & he just drops me like that. Am i being taken for granted? If i leave will he think he should have consulted me before telling me what to do or maybe he would have chose to stay home? I dunno lah.. He says i dun open up enuff.. I say he's not sensitive enuff.
Btw, thank you for not bringing me the HP charger i have been asking from you. I found it in the computer room. And your half an hour is up oready.
Asphyxiated at at 12:51 PM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Some random pix that i forgot to post..
Outside indochine after hours of catching up with my darlings.
Finally a pic wif Ling. This was at the chalet when the guys were starting the BBQ fire
Asphyxiated at at 2:23 PM
I wouldn't really complain about what a rotten life i'm having cos there are still things i'm thankful for but right now, its just really rough.
Asphyxiated at at 12:15 PM
Here's one with the girls outside Rouge yesterday.
I was home on a Wednesday, whining on MSN how bored i was & my dearest god-bro Eric asked me out. What was even better was that Kailing & Mandy met me after their work too! I was a very happy girl. It was only after we met that Eric asked if i wanted to go Zouk.. *sigh* I was super tempted but i was too lazy to go home & change. We spent the whole time slacking from Wisma food court to Lido McCafe before going to find the bitch. Haha. I love you all!
Asphyxiated at at 12:11 PM
