a s f i x i a d o

Thursday, August 31, 2006

FUCK. The asshole is back. I din even realise that he hadn't been home for close to a week. Life without him around is so much better. The air somehow seems fresher. No wonder it was raining cats & dogs earlier in the day. The heavens were mourning for me. Why can't his reservist be some overseas assignment that lasts a year? Haha. Wishful thinking. I still can remember how nice it was yesterday evening when i could watch Rockstar Supernova instead of Singapore Idol. But today is a different story. The asshole has taken over the remote & i have no idea why he loves Singapore Idol so much. I guess it says alot about his taste huh. From over here at the computer, i can hear Jasmine Tye doing a horrid rendition of a Christina Aguilera song. Omg.. please let this nightmare end soon. I'm looking forward to LOST later. I dig Josh Holloway aka Sawyer. I like my men bad & dirty.

Yah la yah la.. i noe i've got nth better to do.. like some pubescent girl having her teenage crush on all the cute guys on tv. What to do when the guys on tv are so much more attractive than the guys i meet? Haha. Sorry guys.. Can't blame me when i've been spending more time wif the telly than being out right?

Asphyxiated at at 8:12 PM

The more i watch Miami Ink, the more tempted i am to get another tattoo. These guys' works are out of this world. If i were to go to Miami, i'll get a tottoo done there for sure. Check it out yourselves!
http://tlc.discovery.com/fansites/miami-ink/miami-ink.html

Here's a sneak peak. A tattoo can't get any simpler than this & yet it's so beautifully done.

What's more, it's the art work of a hottie, Ami James

Asphyxiated at at 12:19 PM

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Love may be many a splendored thing but love also confuses me. At this point in time, i see people madly in love & i also see people falling out of love. Me? I dunno where i am. I am never one to expect too much out of a relationship. Then why can't i get my fair share of good things in a relationship? I noe i'm not in a bad relationship, but is it good enuff? Some peope think i deserve better. I'm so happy when my friends have partners who are so fantastic, but at the same time, i'm thankful i'm not in a rut either.
The other day, someone asked me what we do when we go out. I was seriously lost for words. I couldn't even remember when was the last time we went out alone. I can't even remember when our last movie together was. I miss those times so much. And come to think of it, we haven't been together all that long & oready things are like that? I noe some things can't be helped but sometimes it all gets a little tiring. I guess i noe why wedding vows includes 'for better or for worse' becos sometimes, it's really trying.
Thankfully, my friends have been keeping me occupied this week cos the BF can't spend any time wif me. Yesterday, met Jes at Mas-Ayu for ribena with lemon & the fat cat decided to make a guest appearance. I wanted to go Zouk so badly today but not to worry, cos Kailing came to pick me up & we went Gelare for a drink wif Mandy & Huiting. Tomorrow wun be so bad either cos i'll be meeting da chix & tigress for dinner. What do i do without my frens...

Asphyxiated at at 11:54 PM

Monday, August 28, 2006

I was going thru all my old emails today trying to look for something when i chanced upon past emails from V. I read thru a couple of them & i can't believe it but it still hurts. I guess those wounds just never closed completely. How can it close properly when he left them raw & gaping? It's been such a long while oready. But i can still remember our good times together, and of cos the pain & tears i had to go thru after that. When he so cold bloodedly left me to die, i forced myself to get everything back together & once i thought i was back on track, he had to say he was sorry & that he regretted his actions. That made me fall one more time. His games were so draining. Up til this day, i dun even noe what his actual intentions were. Good or bad? I'll never like him again, but i need closure.

Asphyxiated at at 1:12 AM

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Friday was a good day for me. I finally got my Class 3 license after the longest time. This time was my 2nd try. Yes, i sucked that bad. My first try was at least 3 years ago & after i failed that, i was so put off trying again. Thats until people started pushing me to try again & with only enuff money & time for afew lessons, i did it. Phew. I'm so bloody relieved. I hated travelling to Ubi. Its a 5-10min drive from my house but travelling by bus takes me close to an hour plus i had to change bus.
After my TP, the stupid lady at the counter refused to accept my foto. She told me to go & retake & i refused. I dunno what's her bloody problem. If they acepted the same foto for my passport, i dun see why they can't use it for my driving license. She turned my mood rotten man. But being a bigger bitch, i stood my ground & she said if it's rejected, she'll get scolded. I was so pissed i told her that's not my problem.
I wanna thank my driving instructor Mr Ang, who even though oways complained that my driving was very 'ru mang', had confidence in me & helped me made it in afew crash course lessons. When i smsed him to thank him after the lesson, he actually called me back & told me not to get more than 13 demerit points during my 1st year of driving. Thanks ah. Thats so encouraging.
After that was off to Plaza ParkRoyal for buffet dinner. It was a little disappointing though. Thank goodness they had sashimi. It immediately made everything better. I love my raw salmon. But being a buffet, i tend to overeat & luckily, Mel happened to have Eno with her but it din make me feel better until much later on. Maybe cos i downed the Eno with beer. Haha. Please do not do that k! I dunno how safe it is to mix these 2 but i din think about it until i had oready done it.
After dinner, i went all the way to Queenstown to pick Tubs up from his night class. I din just go to the MRT station. I went to his campus. I feel like i'm the guy in this relationship lor. How come he never picks me up from anywhere? It's not like i drive or anything lor.
Some people feel that i've spoilt him. But i swear it's not me. He was brought up spoilt. I hope he changes though. It's for his own good seriously.
Saturday had dinner at Waruku. The food there is good & isn't too expensive. Only complain is that the place is a tad too small & there is this waitress that has the shrillest voice ever! You can hear her shouting thoughout the night & i so wanted to ask her to shut it.
Jane & Tiger came to pick me & Tubs from my house after that. Went to 85 market to eat. Me & tubs just had dessert cos we were still full from dinner. After that, we bought some snacks & drinks & headed to east coast park to chill.
Haven't been home on a Sunday in a very long time. Tubs left early this morning for the AHM & he went home to sleep after that. I'm still so sleepy cos somebody woke me up from my beauty sleep to ask me for somebody's hp number.. It's so true isn't it. You only call when you need a favour. If not you are forever MIA *sigh* Gone case lah you.

Asphyxiated at at 3:36 PM

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Met up with Kailing, Huiting & Jacki at Bugis for dinner. Haven't seen Jacki in the longest time & that girl is flying off to Australia tomorrow. I'm happy that Jacki is an SQ girl because the standard of our air crew has dropped drastically over the years & we need more girls like Jacki to bring up our image!
Just now, i could only look while Kailing & Huiting went shopping. I'm so fucking broke. Boo Hoo. After all the shops had closed, we went to CAN cafe. Ordering fries was a bad call. We couldn't finish it so we ended up playing blackjack, with the loser having to eat the fries. Other than stuffing our faces, i'm thankful we still have a place like CAN cafe, where we can smoke in the comfort of air con, sofas, food, drinks & card games.
Today while in the car, i heard some pretty amazing stories on the radio. I can't remember which station was on & dun ask why i was tuning in to a chinese station but basically, they were asking listeners to call in & talk about what happens after a break up or something like that. Yes, my chinese is not all that good. The following calls were pretty astounding i must say. (The callers are all middle aged & above) One lady called & said that when she broke up with her partner, she was asked to return all the gifts that were given to her & she had to give the guy $5000 on top of all that. Another guy called & said he demanded an angpow when his partner broke up with him as 'breakup fee' cos he felt cheated. Why? Cos he gave his first time to her (she wasn't a virgin) and things did not work out between them. WTF?? There's something seriously wrong with these people. I nearly ruptured an artery. There are actually guys out there who feels 'used' after having sex for the first time. And some of them stoop so low as to ask for compensation after breaking up with their partners. What was shocking is that there are more than just afew of these callers. And they dun see anything wrong with it! OMG. Uncles, you people can be such a disgrace. Luckily i dunno anyone like dat. Tsk Tsk..

Asphyxiated at at 1:28 AM

Monday, August 21, 2006

Met Mandy on Saturday in town to get Ling's present before heading to Marina South for steamboat. The weather is such a bitch & gone are the days when we could eat & smoke at the same time. It was so fucking hot & i din help that i hate how the oil spits so basically, Mandy had to cook everything for me. Haha. She's sucha darling. They went clubbing after dat but i couldn't join them. Jane & Tiger picked me up from Bugis & we headed to Tub's house to pick him up before going to Prata House for drinks.
Slacked at his place on Sunday before heading to DBS Arts Centre to catch Broadway Beng. It's not bad. Worth watching but you gotta understand some basic hokkien. Met Jes at Mas Ayu & that girl had 2 drinks, a mee bandung & a nasi pattaya. Haha. How she stays so skinny, i have no idea. Waited with her for the bus after dat & even with her contace lenses, she's blind as a bat i swear. She flagged the wrong bus & the bus driver was trying not to laugh. Lolx.
I'm so upset that i lost my lighter. Lent it to Yuan to light Ling's bday candle & he forgot to return it to me. When i realised it the next day, he said his grandpa threw it away! Omg.. Yuan, how can u do that to me? To others, it may just be another lighter but to me, that particular lighter meant alot to me cos Tubs got it for me from the New Zealand camp, which means even if i go to New Zealand, i can't buy it cos the camp is in some ulu part which is inaccessible to the public. But i guess what's done is done. I am one who never loses my things that's why i'm not taking it too well.

Asphyxiated at at 6:51 PM

Friday, August 18, 2006

Its weird. I've been dreaming alot recently. Its like every other day. Recently, i dreamt of 2 people which i have more or less decided to put behind me. I dun remember what my dreams are about. Nothing good nor bad. It just makes me think of people i dun wanna think about anymore.
*SIGH*
A certain anonymous is being mean on a dear friend's tagboard. I dunno why that person is so bitter. The things the person is directing at is so non of his/her business that's why it confounds me. Things like studies & BF. It doesn't even affect the person in anyway so why nit pick? To me, if you have personal issues, bring it on. Let people know how they have upset you. Don't pick on irrelevant stuff to try & bring others down. It just makes you look shallow. Anyway, that's just what i think.
August seems to be a busy month for me. Hopefully my life can go back on track next month. This week is Ling's birthday but being the queen that she is, she asked everyone to make themselves free on Saturday and that's it. I figure she wants us to plan something for her, which i'm sure we'll come up with something. I shall keep in mind that its just 2moro.
Managed to chat with Peiyi & Suleen recently. I miss those girls & i'm sorry i can't go drinking tonight. They were more more than helpful when they knew i was looking for a job but working with Suleen = working in Jurong. That's a scary thought. I had enough of journeys to the west during my internship & of cos, i had Jay to thank for sending me to working almost every other day if not i would have so died during that couple of months.
It feels like i haven't had a proper drink in a long time. A proper sit down, chat & drink kinda drink. A beer doesn't count, neither does the drink bcos im thirsty & tired from dancing kind. I think i shall plan for that to happen soon.

Asphyxiated at at 5:17 PM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Can you tell i'm
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Haha. I miss Mambo so much.. *sigh*

Asphyxiated at at 1:42 AM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

I think i want you..
Maybe in another colour..
Maybe in a new set of rims..
But it's you.

Last Saturday was off to Downtown East to celebrate Mandy's 21st birthday *Sigh* My 21st was like how long ago lor... Those were the days

Asphyxiated at at 8:38 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

I hope i hid my disppointment well. I really dun wanna bring it up cos i may not make things better. I need to see more from you. Words are a prelude to good things to come but actions are what confirms them. I hear alot from you, but i dun see the effort. And suggesting going for buffet was really off dun u think? Of all people, u noe best that i'm down wif diarrhea. What do i do wif u?

Asphyxiated at at 1:35 AM

Monday, August 07, 2006

I am barely recovering from last week's illness & it has hit me a second time. And no, it's not cos i've been on an unhealthy diet. It's cos of some unhygenic manicurist. Saturday was off to JB & i decided to get my finger nails done while Jane got her toes done. That nite, 2 of my fingers started swelling & hurting. Sunday nite, i came down with a fever & diarrhea. My fingers still hurt like fuck & i see pus in one of them. Am i grossing you out? Too bad. I'm in pain.
This morning, i saw an accident which resulted in one of the cars skidding a distance before stopping at the busstop where i was at. I nearly had a heart attack. If it din stop in time, it mite have gone up the curb onto the bus stop & killed me. I'm ashamed to say both parties were women drivers. They were fine but i can't get over the fact that the collision happened quite a distance away & the impact caused the car to skid all the way to the busstop. Poor VM beetle. The back part of the car was pretty much gone, the tyre was banged up almost parallel to the ground and there was black smoke pouring out. Lucky it din collide head on or it would have been really serious. Hope everyone is fine. Drive safe people!
Not a very nice blog.. mine & others' mishaps.. i shall find happier things to blog about in the next post.

Asphyxiated at at 4:06 PM

Friday, August 04, 2006

Did anyone see the Boost energy bar advert on TV? Tell me that you find the girl at the end of the commercial damn irritating. Cos everytime i see that advert, it spoils my mood & the last thing i will do is buy Boost cos it only reminds me of that girl & her horrendous laughter. Her attempt to be funny is sucha failure & i'm sorry if this is getting too personal but can i please slap her?

Asphyxiated at at 6:31 PM

I dun mean to complain but being sick is sucha bitch & so i watched Singapore Idol & can somebody please get Jacintha Abisheganaden out of the show like ASAP? I think they are keeping her there so that she won't be humiliated by removing her halfway through the competition but oh please. Her incoherent ramblings really makes no sense & it's a real pain seeing her trying so hard to find something to say for the sake of it. It's not only the things she say that is utter bollocks. Her expression itself makes me cringe. She looks like a lousy actor tying to look crazed or something. I just can't put a finger to it.
Thank goodness for Rockstar Supernova on cable after that. Fantastic participants & even better judges. Tommy Lee is oways a good dose of eye candy. He's hot as hell. For those with no cable, you can watch it online & vote too. http://rockstar.msn.com/

There's Gilby, Tommy & Jason for u. The greatest combination ever. Who? Gilby Clarke is from my all time favourite Guns N' Roses, Tommy Lee is of course from Motley Crue & Jason Newsted is from one of the most famous rock bands of all time, Metallica. If u still dunno who they are, maybe u can just skip the show. Shame on you!

Asphyxiated at at 2:59 AM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

I'm down wif fever, flu & a very sore throat. That's what all the yummy snacks did to me. But they are just sitting there looking at me & daring me to eat them. So i did. I guess i'll just take abit longer to get better.

Asphyxiated at at 1:34 AM