Thursday, March 01, 2007
First of all, i wanna wish Jes a very
Happy 24th Birthday! It's been 5 years of beautiful friendship & i couldn't ask for a better pal! This girl has been thru so much recently & i really kow-tow to her. She's so strong & she picks herself up so eloquently, no matter the hurt inside. I finally decided to pen down what happened on the 9 Feb. I wanted it to be as detailed as possible but once i started, it wore me out quickly & it still hurts thinking back. It's been close to a month oready. Okok, so Feb was a short month + today is only the first day of March BUT everything is still so freshly etched in my mind.
If you really want this to work out like how you promised me, you gotta put in alot of effort bcos that one decision you made in the past has given me insecurities like i never felt before. You may have retracted what you said + thrown in a bunch of promises, but the damage has oready been done.
I'm feeling slightly better today, even though the weather is even more gloomy then yesterday. And i realise that everytime Kailing plans to meet me for lunch, its raining.
Oh. Did anybody read about the 9 year old girl that got pregnant? That's like primary 3? Scary.. But then she wouldn't have to worry about having a generation gap from her child. Ok i'm just being mean. On second thoughts, that's not really mean what. I mean kids are growing up faster then they used to (and i dun mean physically) & they're exposed to all sorts of ideas. She was having sex in her own home lor. It's not like she was raped or anything. It still feels wrong bcos girls her age are still so cute & small but i guess there are exceptions for everything. Maybe girls who reaches puberty this early have problems controlling their
*ahem* needs. Ok maybe i am starting to sound a little mean even though i swear it's really unintended. I just think its just a mixture of disturbing + interesting.
But i think after this incident i shall still stick to why i think i'll put my future daughter in a girls' school. I wouldn't want her being bonked all over the place at a tender age. Some people may ask what if she turns lesbo. All i can say if she isn't, she'll outgrow it in time to come. Anyway, being exposed to this culture has its benefits too. She'll be exposed to what another girl can offer - which is everything better than what guys can offer sans the dick. (which is the most important part) Ok, & be prepared for more emo stuff. But isn't that the way we like it? Haha. And bcos of this, she'll set a higher bar for guys out there & i'll be assured my daughter wun settle for anyone less. So it's a definate nono for horny little boys out there to lay a finger on my little girl.
Asphyxiated at at 11:09 AM
