a s f i x i a d o

Friday, April 27, 2007

Spent most part of yesterday at the hospital after Mel called me in the morning.
It's weird how draining just sitting around and waiting can be. By late afternoon, i was like a walking zombie so i headed home but i couldn't get to sleep.
It's ironic how in times of grief do people gather naturally. For my family i guess it's not that bad bcos we make it a point to meet weekly but the enormity of the situation is magnified when people are desprately trying to rush back from abroad, and when a relative we haven't seen in many many years decide to show up.
It's scary when my pillar of support is showing signs of crumbling & i have to take on the massive task of being his mini hold-up. When i see him break down for the first time in my life, i feel the need to take charge but it frightens me til no end. My unfaltering shield has shown cracks & i dunno what to do.
As much as everyone have tried to get themselves prepared for the worst, nobody is ever prepared enuff when things do happen i guess.
This came at such a bad time, with so many things happening at the same time. But then again, when bad things happen, there's never a good time.

Asphyxiated at at 10:35 AM

Monday, April 23, 2007

Sad to say, i dun have much recollection of the past weekend because i was sick. So i remember everything in bits & pieces, not necessarily in the right order so not much to update i guess. The main things that happened were Sunday's garage sale & Ethan's birthday after that. Eveything else happened in my semi-concious state while darls was looking after me.

Anyway, since i have nothing to do at work for the moment, and bcos the bitch just tried to piss me off again, i'm in a sufficiently bad mood to wanna bring up some things.

Firstly, it doesn't take a genius to figure out that blogs & tag boards are open to the public. So i dare say that whether i like it or not, it's something i take in my stride.

As far as i'm concerned, i blog for the heck of it, and i dun have anything to hide, thus i dun need any password protected blog, neither do i need to screen comments etc. I barely name names & slam them for pissing me off in anyway bcos if i blog about it, it's to get it off my chest. Not to insult & put those people down. I'm not such a low life.

Also, i read people's blogs if they are my friends or if i find them interesting or even if i'm plain bored but i would never 'get involved' with strangers' blogs. I think it's damn childish & bo liao to tag people & call them fat & ugly & what not. I mean seriously, so what? What you trying to get at? Why is that any of your business how people look? It couldn't get more superficial than this, and to go insult a total stranger who has no grievances towards you in the first place? It's kinda obvious who's the instigator & the trouble maker ain't it?

Insult me all you want, bcos it doesn't bother me. All that matters to me is that i lead a happy life and i believe that good bequeaths good. But i find it hard to understand how much free time some people have on their hands, and how they actually get their kicks by doing some wicked stuff like going round slamming people on their blogs. *sigh* I think i shall pray for that sad soul and ask the lord for forgiveness on it's behalf.

Do i bore you so much that you have decided to divert your attention to my friends? More people to offend, more fun it is for you eh. I'm sure you are not done with me, you have just found more interesting grounds to bring your shit to for the moment right? Get a life. And i mean it literally. Or if you want it more personal, then stop being sucha wuss by getting your pathetic kicks by hiding behind a facade. I think you need to get in touch with God. And i think a shrink may help a little too. But i know that's gonna be one rich shrink cos u need ALOT of help.

I'm happy with myself, my life, my everything. There may be ups & downs, but that's life. I know when to be content & i dun take out my own insecurities on others to make myself feel better. I love my girls and i'm sorry this sick pest has decided to infect your blogs. I guess through this all, it has only made us that much closer eh? Ain't it funny how some things work out? I know all those who are even worth a fraction of my time love me for who i am and the rest can drop down and die for all i care. So yes, even though i'm not much of a foto person, here's one for all my lovelies.

I may be fat & ugly to some, but to each it's own. At least i take comfort in the fact that i'm mentally stable & more happy than you'll ever convince yourself to be.

Asphyxiated at at 11:04 AM

Friday, April 20, 2007

My throat is hurting so bad no thanks to the Oreo wafer sticks & YanYan which we ate last nite. Thank god Mel bought me soupy noodles for lunch.

Today is oready Friday and this Sunday is Garage Sale 1. I think. Nobody confirmed anything with me. The folks just want me to throw out everything i don't want. And no, i'm nowhere near that. Initially, i categorized everything into 3 parts; things i want, things to sell, and trash. But it has gotten so increasingly frustrating that i've unknowingly split everything into 'keep' or 'throw'. So for those who were looking forward to a kick-ass garage sale, sorry to disappoint you lah. Not much ho liao for you all to sup. At least not from me lah. I have no idea what he rest of the family threw out but there are things like retro drinking glasses (Beer brands, F&N, Coca Cola etc. And it's really damn retro cos they were from my granny's old house which i decided to keep that time but now i dun want them anymore cos no space to keep). There's oso lots of decor items (vases, crystals, ornaments etc etc). Then there's things like liquor, clothes, kitchen stuff (everthing you can think of from juicers to steamboat to cutlery to pots & pans to cups etc etc), garden stuff, books... I think its impossible to name everything lah. It's a real mad house. My girls, up to you if you all wanna drop by or not. I think it's not that advisable bcos
1. There may not be anything that interests you
2. It starts in the morning & ends in the afternoon cos in the evening is Ethan's 1st birthday
3. Some of you dun exactly stay very near me
4. I may not have the time to entertain you all much
BUT of course if you all wanna drop by, i'll welcome you with open arms. Haha.
For those who have things in mind that they want, just tell me & i'll go find & put aside for you all.

That's about it in regards to garage sale i guess. I just realised that i havent posted pictures in my blog in a long time. Not necessarily pictures of me, but just pictures in general. I guess it's bcos i hardly have the time to upload my pix from my HP into the com (sorry boy abt last nite. the whole fucking com hanged when i tried to upload my pix & i think the boy had to watch his youtube stuff all over again even though one of the reasons why it hanged in the 1st place is bcos of all the youtube windows). Another reason is that i blog at work for most part of the time & i dun wanna push my luck by uploading fotos at work. Haha. I think i shall get down to doing that tonight. I think i'll back track a little & fit in pictures with my previous posts. Or maybe i'll just dump them all in 1 post if i'm lazy. We'll see how.
* Do take note of one of the pictures of darls at Shangri-La having his birthday lunch. It's so cute lah

Another thing on my mind now is the big $13k question. To go for it or not. *sigh*

Another couple of hours before work ends for the week. This is one place i won't be missing this weekend.

Bye bye Shenton Way

Asphyxiated at at 3:01 PM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

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Asphyxiated at at 11:51 AM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Yesterday after tubs came to pick me up from work, we went to Parkway with the boy and we all got a haircut. Yay! I finally got down to trimming my hair -smirks- We had dinner at Kallang KFC and when we went home after that, i packed my room a little. This time, it was really a little. *sigh* I didn't even bother to sort out what was to be thrown & what could be kept. I just threw it all out for mummy to sort. And then tubs asked to see the stuff that were given to me by my exes, which i had stored in my upper cupboard & which i haven't seen in a long time. And then i couldn't decide if i should dump all the stuff or keep them *sigh* I have totally gotten over these people but being the sentimental person that i am, i just can't bring myself to throw away all these gifts, especially when so many of them are truly sweet & heartfelt. So, that's when i decided i had enuff of packing my room for the day. WTH. I think i shall just dump everything in a big box & tape it up. I shall keep it but there will never be a need to open it up anymore. Now that that's decided, i shall attempt to continue my housekeeping task tonight again bcos time is running out!! I dun even dare imagine clearing the war zone under my bed.

Anyways, Mandy joined Mel & I for lunch today & topic of the day was ghost stories. I hate freaky hotels & i dun wanna stay in a scary hotel when we go BKK in Aug please!! Which is why i will never want to become a tour leader. I can never stand staying alone in a hotel room no matter how nice or expensive it is. I've heard ghost stories in regards to hotels for as long as i can remember & some of those stories are just downright nasty.

Mel asked if I knew this dude staying directly opposite me & i didn't have a clue who she was talking about! I feel kinda bad bcos i suck at recognizing people & i have been staying here for more than 10 years oready. Almost everyone on my street has been staying there for the longest time & they all know each other except me.. Let's see.. i think i only know Mrs Lau (cos she's like a family friend & oso bcos she gave Heidi to me), Dominic (bcos he's a super duper nosey man - even then i can barely recognize him), Aunty Grace (bcos that nice woman oways says hi to me & offers to fetch me out in her car), Aunty Bee Lay's entire family who lives on my right (cos they live just next door & they are the nicest people ever & oso bcos their son has some drool-worthy cars that you'll never fail to hear once he starts the engine. I think it's one of the most orgasmic sounds around. Haha), Henry (bcos he's Rach's godbro & if not for Rach, i'll never noe of his existence either even though he's almost directly opposite me), and then there's the Khoo family who lives on my left (sorry to those who treat Adam Khoo like a god. He may be one of the best motivational speakers around but i hate it when people blast their horn when they are approaching their house so that the maid can open the door for them).

I think that's about everyone i know on my street. Pretty sad, especially when i'm moving out soon oready & everyone recognizes me but not the other way around. I think i shall start looking out for Mel's fren & see if he's even vaguely familiar. I must have seen him before cos he recognises me & can even tell Mel that he's seen me taking a fag outside my house. Hmm..

Ok, enuff of that for now. Since tubs is gonna pick me up later, i shall be nice & go help him collect his Ashworth bag after work.

Asphyxiated at at 3:54 PM

Monday, April 16, 2007

It's so quiet in the office today.. There's only a grand total of 3 people, including me. Darls came to pick me & Mel up for lunch & the weather was madness. One of the worst places we could have gone to for lunch was Maxwell Market & thats exactly where we went. It didn't help that we sat outside so it was really damn bloody hot.

Today is only Monday but somehow it doesn't quite feel like it which i guess is good. Now all i have to wait for is is for the remaining hour or so to pass & then for Darls to come pick me up from work after he is done in the gym with the boy. Hopefully when i get home later i can do a little bit of packing. *sigh* Its such a chore..

Asphyxiated at at 4:35 PM

Friday night was off to Kelvin's house for Jane's mini birthday celebration. It was a very simple one, just cut cake & the queen of horror made us watch some Korean ghost show. I think it was called "Doll Master" or something like that. Thank god it wasn't too scary or maybe it's bcos there were quite afew of us & the place was quite brightly lit. But whatever it is, it just made me dislike dolls all the more. When i pack my room, i'll be sure to throw out any dolls i have sitting in my cupboard even though i doubt i have any. By the time we got back to tub's house, we only had around an hour's sleep before waking up to send his dad to the airport. *yawnz*

Spent the entire Saturday just packing the store room & abit of my room after tubs & i had Pasta Mania for lunch at parkway. Just from that little bit i cleared from my room, i threw away 1 huge trash bag full of rubbish & 2 trash bags full of things i did not want anymore. And my room still looks as packed as usual. Die lah.

Tubs & i drove around trying to figure out where to have dinner & we ended up having BBQ/steamboat at Marina South. After that we met Daniel & Sharon at CGH where that chao keng soldier was trying to get an MC. Haha. Headed down to Vivo only to realise there was nothing nice to watch at the cinema so we went Cafe del Mar instead. Thank goodness we left just in time before it started pouring. By the time we got home & went to bed, it was around 4am & we didn't wake up til 6.30pm on Sunday...

Went to Cote D'Azur for dinner & Grandpa seemed upset & made an announcement. I think that only made everyone else more upset cos it breaks our hearts to see him so sick & down & still worrying over other matters. I'd give anything to see him happy & feeling abit better to pass his birthday this year.

Asphyxiated at at 10:09 AM

Friday, April 13, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANE!

Mandy fell sick so lunch today was just with Mel & Kailing and we spent the entire lunchtime talking about sex and how some guys 'measure up' if you know what i mean. Pretty funny stuff. Mandy should have been there lah. Nvm there's oways another day yah. As predicted, it was pouring during lunchtime bcos Kailing came over. Haha. Mel & Kailing finally saw the infamous office bitch. Happy now?

I thought this was gonna be a damn long week but it has passed surprisingly fast. Yay! Hopefully i can find time to pack some stuff during the weekend or else i'm really screwed.

Nothing much to blog about, just anticipating 6pm...

oh.. and Mel's ghost story may have been a case of false alarm after all but we can't be too sure eh..

Asphyxiated at at 5:10 PM

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Due to Mandy's request, here's my house.

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes. When it comes to love, you shut yourself off. It's difficult to win your heart because you have decided to keep your feelings deep inside. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. We also see that you are sensuous, sexual, and privately passionate. You don't think much about yourself.

As you can see i'm not much of an artist. And i dun see why drawing a house can be an accurate interpretation of my personality bcos i've been drawing houses this way since i was a small kid. It's something you pick up when young and somehow you draw all houses the same bcos that image sticks wif you.

Anyway, yesterday's war was quite a flop. Why is my boss so soft. Why.. At least i've got more authority now and i oso got some things off my chest. I guess it could have gone against me but in the end it became more to my favour so i shall not call it a flop lah. I think i just expected more drama. But it's just as well things turned out the way it did bcos as tubs cautioned 'control your temper in front of your boss!' If it had blown out of proportion it would have put the boss in a spot i guess. Cos he can so relate to what i'm unhappy about but he can't do anything about it. Like he said 'try to pour oil over turbulant waters'. Spoken like a true GM of an oil company.

There are ants running around randomly on my desk and it's damn irritating. I dun have food at my desk so i suspect they are from the damn plant. I do not touch ants so i have been using my trusty scotch tape to trap them. Gross stuff.

Before i forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY CORINA!! Yup, its Mel's mum's birthday and she ranks high on my list of favourite relatives! May she oways stay happy & young at heart!

Asphyxiated at at 12:35 PM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

There's gonna be a war at 1730hours. Stay tuned.

Mel told me about something that happened to her colleague last night. It made my hair stand on ends i swear. It's so freaky i dun even wanna put it down on words so those interested to know what happened, i'll just tell you all about it. Which reminds me, yesterday around midnight, we came across 2 serious accidents just by travelling from AMK to Siglap. And that prompted tubs to buy 4D today. Haix. And Mel oso reminded me that this Friday is the 13th. I actually know of people who really get unlucky on every Friday the 13th so people, just be safe yah.

Asphyxiated at at 2:42 PM

Monday, April 09, 2007

What a long & good break for me. Here's a quick glimpse..

4 April - Wednesday
Mandy dear came down to lunch with me but she had to meet a customer & i had loads of work to do so we couldn't have an extended lunch but it was better than nothing. It was so busy today but i guess it's a good thing as well cos time passed real quick.
After work was off to tub's house to change & get ready. After that we went to pick up Marcus & Alex and went for dinner. Went straight down to Zouk from dinner & then it was time for some serious partying. Thank god there wasn't any road blocks on the way home cos i believe i wouldn't have passed the breathalyzer test. I haven't clubbed in such a long time that by 2am, my feet were aching. Sent the 3 monkeys for supper @ Prata House & then it was home to zzZzzZz..
I missed mambo so much & i'm glad darls had fun & i'm happy he didn't get drunk bcos the next day at lunch wouldn't be a pretty sight.

* Thanks Mel & Mandy for coming down to Zouk! Hope you girls had lotsa fun!!

5 April - Thursday
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY DARLS!
Woke up & realised the car wasn't at home so we cabbed to Shangri-La for tub's birthday lunch @ The Line. We were given a voucher after lunch so we decided to use it & we ended up having tea and cigarettes while trying to digest our lunch.

Cabbed back to my place after that and we took the car to Expo for some shopping. They were having a mini branded sale & i got myself a aeropostale polo tee just for the heck of it & tubs bought a abercrombie tee. We continued at the John Little sale & we bought so much stuff we dun need.. OMG.
Headed to Raffles Town Club after our shopping spree to meet tub's family for dinner.

* I love you darling & i hope your 21st was a blast. I'm glad you like your present -smoochies-

6 April - Friday
Friday was pretty much spent sleeping in. By the time we woke up it was oready 10+pm so we decided to do something we haven't done in a long while - take a bus home. By the time we reached Siglap, tubs was feeling sick from the ride but we still ended up taking the car & we brought the boy out. Wanted to go Simpang Bedok but it was packed so we ended up going to a coffee shop at Eunos for our late dinner. After that the boys wanted to bowl so we headed to East Coast Park only to realised they had just closed so we went to Marina South in the end. By that time it was around 4am oready so we went home.

7 April - Saturday
Tubs either forgot to set the alarm or he conveniently turned it off bcos by the time i woke up, it was oready 9+am & he was still soundly asleep. Woke him up & he cabbed to work cos the car was nowhere to be found.
Didn't manage to sleep much after that & most of the day was spent packing just the kitchen with mummy. How i will be able to pack my room in time is still a mystery.
Tubs came down to pick me up after that & we went to Bugis for steamboat. After that we canned plans to have baileys milkshake at Mt Faber bcos it was packed so we went KTV-ing with Mandy & Guoan at Orchard PartyWorld til 5am.

* Ronny - I miss you too boy. Take care of yourself over @ Indo!
8 April - Sunday
Had to wake up after barely afew hours worth of sleep bcos we had to go see what the interior designer had done up for us. Tubs was so crabby but he was ok after awhile (i think it was bcos he was having a good time laughing at the interior designer's english). I quite liked my room layout but now it's only whether i want my bed higher or not for more storage space.
After that we had lunch at East Coast Park Tung Luk. It's been so long since we last went there for dim sum lunch man.
The weather was the typical scorching hot Sunday weather so what's better than to head home & sleep the entire day away? We did exactly that and we woke up in time to watch the ending of AI & we headed back to my place & we brought the boy to East Coast Park drive-thru & they had macs for supper.

Asphyxiated at at 10:46 AM

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Why can't we have waiters that look like this in Singapore? Yes, Mr World is from Spain & he's a waiter (sommelier to be exact, but still..), followed by Brazil & then *cough cough splutter puke* China. So what if it's the host country? There's no QC whatsoever...

And no, i can't be bothered to watch Mr World on TV. It's just all over the news & Mr China just stuck out too much like a sore thumb for me to ignore.

And yes yes, bcos this is a super birthday month, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO WANG WANG whose birthday was on April's Fool Day, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEANIE BOY! 1 more birthday to go for this week. I wonder whose birthday it is...hmm...

Lunch with Mandy today was a killer. I'm still not used to having proper meals for lunch.
It's just oways too much. Despite eating somewhere sheltered, it was still damn hot & it din help that i was still in Chinatown at 2+pm so... i cabbed back to office. It's only less than $5 & it's so much faster. Sounds like a plan eh. Now i noe what to do next time.

Talking to Mandy, i realised how long it has been since i had talked to Ling. The last time i met her was to go Momo & you dun expect alot of talk in clubs do you. It doesn't help that her working hours are different from everyone else's plus i barely go to MoS to it's shit hard to get hold of that girl. I think the next time me & tubs does a pitstop at her block for a fag, i should just give her a call. Ling, if you're reading this, i miss you!! and not forgetting your laughing fits of course.

I've got work to do but i can't do anything until the boss comes back to tml. And i need to pee very badly but the stupid bitch has been in the toilet for the past 20mins & counting. I bet she's stinking up the toilet again. Maybe i should sneak into the gents since i have the spare key.

Mel's back to work tml & Mandy's coming over to lunch with me. Yay! It's gonna be another great lunch, this time minus the traveling & the heat. Phew!

Asphyxiated at at 2:56 PM

Monday, April 02, 2007

Long lunch with Mandy & Gong Wen today & the weather is ridiculous. Chinatown is like just 2 stops away but the sun was enuff to give me a headache. But nevertheless, i can afford to go on another extended lunch tml again.

Tubs & I are gonna watch Phantom of the Opera. Except we haven't booked the tickets yet. Still plenty of good seats so i guess there's no need to fret yet. I was pretty half hearted whether to watch it or not bcos the last time they came to town, i had oready gone for the show. But then again, it was so good i wouldn't mind catching it again. That's until Tubs (of all people), asked if i wanted to go. So yah, i can't wait!

Asphyxiated at at 3:32 PM

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEL!!
I'm glad you like the present me & Glenn picked for you. A very discreet & cunning scheme to get people to 'donate' to you eh. Haha.

Friday was late nite shopping in town. We din get to shop much bcos we din expect it to be so damn crowded & so Tubs picked his birthday present & that was about it. We tabao-ed muffins from Wisma & headed to my place after that. Tubs wanted Macs so we went to the drive thru & the stupid woman asked 'eating here or take away?' Dun be stupid lah. If we're eating there why the hell would we go drive-thru for?!

Saturday was Mummy's birthday which we celebrated at Raffles Town Club. The birthday cake was courtesy of Tubs & I, which i hope she liked cos she had wanted to try it for a long time but but they only took orders so we never really got down to trying it in the past. After that we went to KBox til 4am then we had Macs breakfast. Haha.

Sunday was spent sleeping in & lazing around as usual & then we went to Granny's house for dinner & for Mel's mini cut-cake session. Hung out at East Coast Park with Mel & after Gel & Raven came down to find us for awhile, it was oready close to midnite so we 2 car convoyed again.

That's about all for my weekend. Bcos it was so late by the time we got home last nite, i din get to meet Jes to pass her the CD. I shall do it tonite cos tml she'll be going on the cruise oready. Lucky girl!

And speaking of traveling, i have finally confirmed a trip this year. Yes, finally. There was plenty of talk & no action & now that we've booked the tickets, it's a major sigh of relief man. Thanks to Mandy who asked of cos. So come August, it'll be hello Pattaya & Bangkok!!

Asphyxiated at at 9:35 AM