Friday, April 27, 2007
Spent most part of yesterday at the hospital after Mel called me in the morning.
It's weird how draining just sitting around and waiting can be. By late afternoon, i was like a walking zombie so i headed home but i couldn't get to sleep.
It's ironic how in times of grief do people gather naturally. For my family i guess it's not that bad bcos we make it a point to meet weekly but the enormity of the situation is magnified when people are desprately trying to rush back from abroad, and when a relative we haven't seen in many many years decide to show up.
It's scary when my pillar of support is showing signs of crumbling & i have to take on the massive task of being his mini hold-up. When i see him break down for the first time in my life, i feel the need to take charge but it frightens me til no end. My unfaltering shield has shown cracks & i dunno what to do.
As much as everyone have tried to get themselves prepared for the worst, nobody is ever prepared enuff when things do happen i guess.
This came at such a bad time, with so many things happening at the same time. But then again, when bad things happen, there's never a good time.
Asphyxiated at at 10:35 AM
