Monday, July 23, 2007
Somebody chanced on me online. Weird shit. Online is the last place I thought we’ll ‘bump’ into each other, but we did. Haha. It just brings me back to the past all over again.
Anyway, since I’m free now, and it’s a Monday, let me unleash the bitch in me. Just a little. Haha. My intention is not to be bitchy, mind you. But sometimes I just get carried away.
But I would like to say that after Friday, I really thank god that the ex is such a gentleman and I’m very happy about the way he handled the situation. Which is why til date, me & the ex are still such great friends & I will oways treasure him.
However, I cannot say the same for this other person. I believe in giving credit where credit is due so I do think that this person can make a good friend/BF. I would know so bcos he really showed his interest/affections in an array of ways. I never once took it for granted but it was never something I yearned for bcos I did not have feelings for him. And I made it clear. To him, and to everyone I knew.
It is not my fault if he insists on doing so many things for me. But it’s so one-sided. And just bcos I don’t return his affections, it cannot be taken that I’m being mean. Matters of the heart cannot be forced. He used to tell me “I just wanna do all I can so that I will not have any regrets”. If you are gonna say that to me, then dun make yourself look like the victim in front of others & make it look like I’m taking advantage of you. That is so low-down.
I shall not pick anymore things during that period of time bcos this is gonna be one hellavu long post. Let’s move on to after what happened. It says a lot when week after week you promise to return my things to me & you push it to the next week, and the next etc. If you told me straight you didn’t wanna return my stuff to me, fine. I will take it like a man. At least more a man than you. Don’t be such a wussy and delay it time and again, even after I offered so many times to go and collect it myself. And why pretend to be nice to me at the same time? Why be such a faker? I thought you had come to accept the fact, I thought you had cleared your thoughts. I guess I was wrong about you.
Then on Saturday, you just had to give us a dirty look eh. Can you be anymore childish or petty. It’s been close to 2 fucking years!? Get over it oready. Grow up. Seriously. I think it proves a lot that I’m still with tubs. It shows that we were & we still are serious about each other. You weren’t even my BF so why so sore up til now? Are you being selfish by thinking ‘if I can’t have her then nobody else can’.
Anyway, you knew I go to Punggol Park almost every week so I would take it as you are trying to prove something by going there as well. No doubt it’s a public place & anyone can go there. I never said otherwise what. But I knew it was on purpose. So that was an incredibly TMD childish moment for me. It just made people think so much lesser of you than they oready do. I think you should take a moment to remind yourself how old you are oready. Be more ‘da fang’ and people will respect you so much more. If you dun get over this obstacle, you will oways have ‘xin bing’ and I dun see how that’s gonna do you any good.
Maybe it’s bcos you are the only child and therefore you are more spoilt. But you have to learn how to accept the fact that things cannot oways go the way you want it and get over it without bearing any grudges.
I oso hope by now that you have completely stopped taking/using your parents money cos at this age, the only thing that should be happening is you giving them money and not you taking a single cent from them. That includes anything that has to do with the car and oso things like a supp card. Of cos this is none of my business. But I think I had to say it. And I feel the same way about everybody. So I’m not nit-picking on you.
I’ve got so much to say but I think I shall stop. You get the rough idea. If I see you the next time acting so childishly, don’t blame me if I burst out laughing or if I start shaking my head. Cos I feel sad for you. If you wanna be a casanova, try not to be a sore loser.
Asphyxiated at at 4:23 PM
