Friday, August 31, 2007
I told you so but you insisted it wouldn’t happen. But it did. Is this one of the instances I mean when I say actions speak louder than words? I guess so. No doubt you apologized. I appreciate the apology but after some time, words don’t do it for me anymore. I will believe when I see it. And that’s the way to build trust. Sure, it’s a fairly minor incident, but maybe it’s precisely because it’s minor therefore it shouldn’t even have happened?
As for the other things we spoke about earlier in the night, I guess we’ll just have to take it as it comes. I do not blame anyone for that, and I cannot predict what may happen, but at least I made my intentions and feelings clear. Since it’s something unavoidable, I would value some discretion & sensitivity on your part. I’ve stuck by you thru your toughest times, and have always been there for you, so show me that it hasn’t been taken for granted. Absence does NOT make my heart grow fonder. So if one day you start to feel the overwhelming pressure of work + classes and if you start seeing me as an add-on to your pressure, then I know that something is seriously wrong about the way you look at me.
Of course all these are ifs. And I know we are fine & dandy now. But I’m just laying all these out for you should it happen.
Yeah, I’m moody today. It’s been a long time since a Friday doesn’t seem like the weekend to me.
Anyway, went to Chix’s Grandpa’s wake last nite with Jane & tubs. I wanted to say something, but I’ve decided its better not to. What’s past is past I guess.
On a totally different note altogether, I haven’t finish talking to my girls lah. When can we continue? So many juicy stories.
Had Macs drive-thru this morning and while tubs and I were having a smoke outside my office, Mr Evil Cigarettes walked past and tubs finally saw for himself how good looking he is. I guess when I told tubs about him, he never paid much attention but now that he’s seen first hand what I mean by good looking, he knows I’m not kidding. Haha.
September is going to be my super broke month. And I think it’s going to be a boring month. 4 birthdays which sounds pretty decent BUT 1 birthday boy is in jail, 1 birthday boy is from the ex’s side & I dun think I would wanna go, and 1 birthday person is one of the ex & if you can’t forget, I don’t think I’d wanna make it worse rite. Which only leaves Ting’s birthday which I’m so looking forward to! But that’s like next week, which leaves me just as bored for the rest of the month.
Tiger is coming back soon & Jane will be spending most of her time with him & going BKK (lucky bitch!), and Chixy will have plans of her own (scandalous! You know, I know can oready). Mandy & Kailing will be so busy with work + school. So for September, and the following 3 months, Rachel will be my nu ren cos Ah Boy is going sailing for 4 months. And when he comes back early next year, it’s their wedding dinner! Yes yes yes. My girls will try to keep me occupied and not let boredom get the better of me right? After the ex, I told myself I-will-not-stray! And I’m determined to stick to it.
Anybody wanna be my sugar daddy? Haha. i'm kidding.
Asphyxiated at at 11:41 AM
