Tuesday, February 26, 2008
My bitches are going prawning tonite but I’m so lazy to drive there and back on my own. But bcos staying at home is as good as wanting my life, I may just decide to go ahead.
Sunday at Xian Wang, the bf has proudly declared to my bitches that he is part of the minority report. Sad. I can see they feel sad for me too. Haha. But I shall try to adapt bcos self pity isn’t going to make me feel any better. Hur hur. All I want is a simple life. All I’m asking for is all things average. I don’t ask for big fancy cars and houses, so I’m crossing my fingers I don’t get sub-standardness from the other end of the spectrum.
But looking at figures makes it hard not to compare especially when the majority = more than 90% and I can’t help but think ‘why me??’ so I shall not dwell on that and focus on all things good, which I have a lot to be thankful for.
But I have to say after all this time, I still have my uncertainties. And they stem from things I see. I have learnt that in my case, it is more dependable seeing than hearing. Bcos talk is cheap after all. So with abit more time, and abit more actions, and abit more results, and abit more decisiveness, I hope everything turns out fine. When it comes to such things, I can have the patience of a saint, and sometimes I lose out bcos of it. Sometimes being too supportive and being too easy going makes you invisible and seemingly unimportant. So hopefully in the midst of all the madness going on in our daily lives, you take time out to see who is the one and only unwavering support, who has not faltered after all this time while you try to find your feet.
Maybe its not unconditional, bcos some stumbles I may be there no matter what, but for others, I won’t think twice about leaving for greener pastures. Let’s just say my importance to you and your commitment towards me is the name of the game. The ending is pretty much in your hands so play smart.
And no, kaypohs, nothing is wrong between the bf and me. I just felt like saying what I felt and sometimes I feel a little early reminder is good. Like they say, ‘you have been forewarned’.
Lunch with Mel and the bf is a killer. I’m so full I think I’m gonna puke.
Any takers for sending me to prawning tonite and back? And no, nightcap not included.
Everytime I lose my self controlIt seems like I can't let you goI'm at the point of no return Don't ever wanna come back downI'm up so high above the groundThis feeling I will always yearn Drifting awayI'm flyingI'm gonna head for paradiseNothing to sayI'm climbingI wanna stay right here tonight Drifting awayDrifting away Now I've got you inside of meI take the opportunityTo keep on going with the flow Don't ever wanna come back downI'm up so high above the groundI hope this feeling never goes Drifting awayI'm flyingI'm gonna head for paradiseNothing to sayI'm climbingI wanna stay right here tonightDrifting away Drifting awayDrifting away
Asphyxiated at at 3:09 PM
