Another gloomy day. Actually I quite like it this way. Dark and cooling, but no rain. At least for now.
I think I’ve been listening too much to Mambo songs. I REALLY miss Zouk. If only Chixy wasn’t starting work so soon. Then we can go club the nite away and not worry about not being able to wake up for work the next day. I can imagine us going to Swee Choon for supper after that and complaining how stuffed we are after that. Typical us.
Was watching TV and there was thing guy which really reminded me of Ah Huat. But I couldn’t be sure cos even though many things matched like his name, his looks and his occupation, it has been too long a time since I last saw him, and oso his mannerism was totally different. The Ah Huat I used to know was loud-mouthed and cocky and playful and never failing to get into fights. Every clubbing session with him was oways dangerous cos he offends people so easily. The Ah Huat I saw on TV yesterday was so toned down. I think even ‘toned down’ is too mild a word to use. He was omost shy and very meek. I smsed him after the show and he confirmed it was him. I do miss his company but somethings have touched very raw nerves these few years and I guess things are different now. But I believe as long as it still bothers him, it means that he still cares, and it oso means there’s still hope. I think we shall go patronize his food stall one day and do some catching up, either with Danny Boy or Chixy since they both know him.
Went to pick my bitches up last nite and we went to Xin Wang again. Second nite in a row. Haha. I knew this would happen especially when the weather’s not so good and after we got our membership card. I ordered fries which I couldn’t finish after eating afew and just as we thought it was going to waste, the boy appeared so I got it packed for him to take away. He reminds me of how I used to be. All the sneaky late nite gallivanting but when we get found out, we don’t give a fuck.
This morning, my mum was talking me in the car while sending me to the MRT station. And she was saying how kids nowadays think that they are oways in the right and that parents’ words falls on death ears now. Too bad it was such a short journey to the station cos I had a lot to say about that. I dunno who she was referring to, or maybe it’s just a general statement, but mummy, you are historical. Its time to evolve your thinking as the world evolves.
I tried to put it in my own context. I said as long as I still wake up on time and function as I should at work, it is not for others to be disapproving and try to change my lifestyle. As much as sleeping early and waking up early is a good habit, that is not my kinda lifestyle, and that is not my friends’ kinda lifestyle. I told her as much as my health may benefit from that, my emotional state may not. Haha.
Sometimes I think she has got too much time on her hands. If she tried telling the asshole such things, she’s just asking to be told off by him. If she told the boy, he’ll just ignore her. So I guess its up to her good daughter to dig her out from under that rock she’s been hiding in for the past thousand years or so and let her smell the coffee from year 2008. But to me, if you wanna talk about things, you better be open to other people’s views. Not that I’m asking her to change her thinking immediately, but at least try to understand why people feel the way they do. If she’s not even open to that, then I think she shouldn’t waste my time at all.
The mother can be really exasperating at times. I discount her for being too bored and too lonely and too old fashioned and basically, she’s just getting old BUT 老娘 has her own share of problems to handle so I hope she doesn’t go overboard cos somehow, after living with me for so many years, she still doesn’t seem very aware of my explosive temper, which I’m convinced is due to a case of selective judgment. She thinks and she wants me to be the sweet obedient daughter I was when I was in kindergarten. I’ve grown and found my own footing and morphed into my own set of character so I think she should accept that too. Many times, I just wanted to tell her the most apt sentence – “MYOB”. Yup, mind your own business and she’ll make life a little sweeter for herself and the people around her. I have no idea how she can piss so many people off at times and still not see it as her fault.
She keeps talking about her family i.e. her parents and siblings etc and how they do things. But puh-leeze, you have your own family now, and others have their own family so everyone works and thinks differently. To think yours is the only right way to go is just, well, wrong.
*sigh* I guess this has to be put aside til another time when I can have a proper talk with her. I think I should be commended for my patience with her, especially seeing that everyone else in the household does not.
Wow, first thing in the morning and I have dedicated one whole blog entry for the mother.
And here's something to whet my baby's appetite to start his day
Both of us can't stand seeing people with hairy ears. It's just highly disturbing and traumatising. This one just takes the cake. -shivers-
Asphyxiated at at 10:03 AM
