Tuesday, March 18, 2008
I’m crabby. I wanted to run away and then… the boss sent me an email which spoilt my plans totally. He should be in the States instead of being in London. London time does NOT work for me. I am so pissed!!!
I haven’t been in the best of moods today. I dunno why. Maybe it’s the piece of bad news I got in the morning, maybe I’ve just been generally crabby after THE announcement cos I’m feeling all vulnerable. But somebody’s email brought my spirits up a little, only for it to plummet again.
Maybe it’s PMS. But I am very pissed off now. And I can’t put a finger to the reason why. I feel like buying something nice for myself. I think that may gratify me a little. I know I should be saving money, but at the same time it feels so sickening to withhold myself and not indulge.
I think I may be spending too much on other people and not enuff on myself! And of course, people are not spending enuff on me. Haha. It may sound superficial, but it’s not like I’m saying my love is measured by money what. But as a girl, I do feel the need to be pampered. And it is a fact that I like pretty things. Some people have no qualms spending on food. I have no problem spending on clothes and shoes and accessories. At least the things I like can be looked at and worn and appreciated time and again. Not just something you chew, swallow, and shit out.
Ok I do realize I’m morphing into a mini bitch now and I better stop before I become a full-blown one. I think to make myself feel better, I shall go buy myself something nice later. Maybe not a Gucci bag cos I haven’t set my sights on any, maybe just a little feel-good trinket from Tiffany. Hopefully that does the trick.
Or maybe all I have to do is meet my bitches and they’ll make me feel better. Cos it is them who have time for me and it is them who listens, and it is them who understands, and dishes out advice without pissing me off.
Asphyxiated at at 5:18 PM
