Once again I woke up late. Fanfuckingtastic. But surprisingly I didn’t reach work that late. I think I was barely 10 mins late and that’s plus the crazy rain. I think me not being able to wake up shows how much my health is deteriorating. I used to be able to club the whole nite and go to work with barely any sleep, then it became having just afew hours of sleep but I’m still able to wake up in time. Now, I can barely wake up at all..
Yesterday, left work halfway, went home to change and met my bitches for lunch at Parkway. We ate at the hawker and I’m so proud of myself cos it’s been a long long time since I last ate at a hawker center. Just when we were about done with lunch, it started pouring but we found a brolly so we used it to shelter ourselves to Parkway and it barely helped cos we still ended up all wet. Shopped a little and I was pretty set on doing some shopping but I didn’t find anything I liked so we ended up having Swensens.
This is very bad. We are eating too much Sundaes for our own good. Walked around a little bit more after that then Chix’s dad came to pick us up and gave me a lift to my dentist.
Total damage at my dentist = $300+
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I nearly fainted when I saw the bill. And no, I didn’t extract any teeth.. But when it comes to dentists and the sake of my teeth, I shall not scrimp on that. Plus I love the clinic and my dentist. She’s one of the nicest dentists around and the clinic is so cosy and while you are getting your teeth done, there’s a nice LCD screen in front of you to watch shows and such. And the magazine rack has the best mix of mags ever. They have everything from Singapore Tatler to tabloids. Haha. I hate clinics with torn mags which makes the place look like a recycle bin. and I so love the couches there.. You really sink into them and never wanna get up. Ok that’s not the point. I’m just saying as expensive as they are, I don’t mind paying for good service, good results and comfort even though it’s been one day and I still feel the pinch.
It was a pretty quick appointment and I got everything done in 30 – 45mins and once I got home, MSNed abit and then I decided to nap.. So from 7pm, I napped and I napped and I was dead to the world and when I woke up from my slumber at 11pm, I had a million SMSes and missed calls, all which I either didn’t hear or I had thought it was the alarm in my semi-conscious state and pressed it away.
Went to shower, then called da chix who was hungry, so I went to pick her up and we went 5 star for dinner/supper. We decided to go light so we had a small bowl of plain porridge each + white cheeken and we ordered duck soup, which we barely finished half of it. Met someone for awhile after that and then I went home to continue what little sleep I could squeeze in before having to wake up again.
Something happened last nite which made me kinda regret not taking someone’s offer and going to Zouk bcos I was so damn gian. Sometimes its really 好心没好报 and I should fuck what the world thinks and go ahead and do some things which I have been restricting myself to do.
It’s pointless to argue cos my point of view never fails to get blocked right from the start and bringing certain issues up with people who are highly defensive of themselves and who are not open to the logic behind how other’s think is just, well, pointless. Talk about emotional disconnect.
I think it’s ironic that I am able to update others on so much more about my life and what I feel etc except my very own BF. I think he’s the most clueless of the lot what goes on in my life and all this while, I’ve been telling myself that he’s been busy with work and tired etc. Yup, I’ve tried to be so understanding, so much so that I discount my own BF for not knowing what’s up with my life.
To think that not matter what I do, I put him first and foremost. I’m somehow glad the shirt sizes were wrong if not I would have bought him a whole bunch of clothes the other day. And he talks about counting with his 10 fingers certain things. I think you can give me a million hands and it won’t even be enuff to count the things I do for him. I hate being such a fool for someone who doesn’t appreciate and thinks it as being controlling or whatever. If you’re not ready to commit yourself to having a GF, let me know.
I have never ever thought about wanting the BF to accompany me til the wee hours of the morning cos I think whether he has enuff sleep etc and what do I get? I get my care and concern taken advantage of and transferred to being out the entire nite out with others. Fab. Sometimes being nice really doesn’t pay. Sometimes he says things like how bad he feels he can’t keep awake to talk to me cos he’s so tired blah blah blah. As much as he's oways tired, I let it go. But like I oways say, talk is cheap cos I see the exact opposite happening.
And have I ever said your outlet for cooling down is applaudable? It really makes me think how I can live with you in the future. Get angry and disappear and have a good time all nite long. Now that’s comforting.
And I still can’t stand that shit about ‘business is business’. If I go sell myself, can I oso say ‘business is business’? I know it’s a totally different example but if you are understanding enuff, you will be able to see that the logic behind it is the same. But I guess not.
Openings for a weekday BF. Please apply within. I need some serious pampering.
I need a lover to give me
The kind of love
That will last always
I need somebody uplifting
To take me away
I want a lover who knows me
Who understands how I feel inside
Someone to comfort and hold me
Through the long lonely nights
Till the dawn
Why don't you take me away
Dreamlover come rescue me
Take me up take me down
Take me anywhere you want to baby now
I need you so desperately
Won't you please come around
'Cause I wanna share forever with you baby
I don't want another pretender
To disillusion me one more time
Whispering words of forever
Playing with my mind
I need someone to hold on to
The kind of love that won't fly away
I just want someone to belong to
Everyday
Of my life
Always
So come and take me away
Dreamlover come rescue me
Take me up take me down
Take me anywhere you want to baby now
I need you so desperately
Won't you please come around
'Cause I wanna share forever with you baby
Asphyxiated at at 9:54 AM
