I admit I have been pretty irritable of late. Seemingly small things manage to piss me off and I think it does keep some people on their toes. I am apologetic that sometimes I find it hard to keep my temper in check, but I’m not apologetic that I feel the way I do, because I have valid reasons. Maybe people tend to change with age, maybe people start thinking differently or their dynamics shifts over time, but I hope they will stop for a minute and think about the past, how things used to be and try to backtrack a little cos those were the best times, and those were the innocent, fun times.
I do see as some of my friends get older, there’s a lot more competition and a lot more selfishness. The saving grace is that I dun think they even realise it. So I know it’s not on purpose and I dun feel that all is gone yet. I do hear a lot more of people talking about themselves, til a point where it gets abit of an overload. There are also instances when they stop talking about themselves and shifts the spotlight to something else, but then it becomes somewhat of an interrogation session. I mean, where is the love? Whatever happened to “how have you been?” , “how’s work?”, “how have you been doing?”, things that are more heartfelt instead of digging for hot gossip?
I know once again I’m being vague, yet accusing. My tone oways comes out a tad harsher than how I mean for it to sound, and yet, I dun wanna name names cos I find there’s no need to implicate people when all I want is to let loose some steam. I just want those who feel that the friendship has somehow morphed through the years to think of how simple things used to be and if you miss those times, let’s endeavor to bring back some of those memories. Let’s try to think of other’s before ourselves and not just ourselves cos that’s what a friendship is all about ain’t it?
Well, that’s just my 2 cents worth, some food for thought.
Anyway, so much for lusting over that LV bag. It is out of stock. No just in Singapore, but pretty much worldwide according to the sales lady. Dang!
Got a surprise call from Steven. That dude is married with a year-old daughter oready. Let’s hope he’s more settled down now. Haha. Gotta catch up with him soon man.
I’m sleeping later and later each day and I have to force myself to sleep before the sun comes up. i hate it!!
Monday nite, was at Kovan Xin Wang. After that, we still bought drinks and sat under the block to chit chat til quite late. And when I got home, I still couldn’t sleep..
Yesterday, the mother did something right and I was more than willing to help her out. Hahaha. I helped her make jacket potatoes and lasagna. Finally some proper food man. Met up with Jes, Jane and Chixy last nite and we went to Peppery til close to 3am and then we went to Chixy’s house to nua til the “typewriter” reached. When I got home, I was still so damn awake so I watched TV and used the net. Insomnia is after me once again. I hate it! But to be fair, I am waking up later and later too so maybe I shall just try to wake up a tad earlier. Maybe it’ll help.
Today is Wednesday. To Mambo or not.. Speaking of which, here’s something interesting. Hahaha!
Been looking through hotels the entire day.. Hopefully I can scoot off to Hong Kong next month for a short vacation before I really start getting down to looking for a job.
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