I’m pooped. Woke up early to send tubs to the train station and then met my bitches at Roxy before heading to town. We started off at Wisma and then Taka, doing just a quick one for me to buy my shoes and we were planning to return later on to shop properly at these 2 places but once we set foot in FEP, we were goners. We spent the entire day there, right until they closed. Even though I did buy stuff, I still think I had a lot of self control. I saw 2 bags which I liked but their exorbitant costs kinda made me think twice and I ended up buying neither.
We had planned to eat Jap but they were closed so we ended up eating an absolutely terrible lunch. What a bloody waste of money and calories. The 3 of us ate different food, and all turned out horrid. Pui! And plans to eat Jap for dinner went down the drain yet again cos ny the time we were done shopping, it was oready closed and we ended up eating at Subway.
I spent a hell lot of money today even though when I came home to look at my shopping, I didn’t feel any satisfaction at all. Haha. Here’s some of the stuff I bought.
My shoes! They are like school shoes lah. But really comfy!
This pair of boxers is dirt cheap but bloody comfy. I think it's less than $4 lah.
And..
Can you tell what this is? It's a pouch. Bloody cute can. It looks like underwear but I have no idea why I bought it. -shrugs-
I dun think anyone is interested to look at the other stuff like leggings right. And I finally got my brows trimmed. They weren’t exactly out of shape cos I do bother to keep them groomed, but sometimes it just feels nice having someone do it for you. Now I just need to get my manicure and padicure done! My nails are getting too long oready and I hate it when they break.
Anyway, at the end of the day, my legs were hurting like mad and not only were my arms tired, they were red and bruised from all the carrying of my bag and my shopping. Even now, my arm looks like it’s been attacked by a cat. Haha. And to make matters a whole lot worse, the cab queue at FEP was mad PLUS there were no cabs in sight. But never fear when my new neighbour is near. Haha. I got a ride back thanks to a certain someone and we dropped Chixy on the way and then we went nearby for coffee.
Some people may think I’m being spiteful, to get another guy to send me home, but I beg to differ. First, this other guy is just a friend, second, when a simple request for the BF to gimme a ride home because it is impossible to get a cab is flatly rejected, and it has come to a stage where my body is impossible to attempt taking any form of public transport, I need to find the next best solution for myself. I don’t expect the BF to come fetch me home, but sometimes I don’t understand why he can’t do it. Just knocked off, going home. Not like he has somewhere to rush to, or he’s in the midst of something. Once in a blue moon, fetching your stranded GF, is it really so tough? I hardly ask for anything, but when I do, it’s when I really need it and the reply I get is simply outstanding. And it’s not like he’s tired to his bones and rushing to get home and into bed. He went home, then went over to gay love’s house cos gay love wants to talk to him. Hur hur. The irony of it all.
I hate to be calculative, but sometimes, I’m subconsciously being molded to be like that by you. In the past, I never had an issue driving anywhere, anytime, just for you, even at my own expense, even though it was financially and physically draining. Then it became the ‘Mon-Wed, sticky’ issue, and then sometimes I don’t even know what is what anymore. Sometimes either ways seem wrong for you, and I can’t help but feel sick and tired. And when I feel that way, it’s not a good sign cos once I feel I can’t depend on you, you know how much your worth is to me.
I maybe just ranting now, I may regret some of the things I type later on, but sometimes I really can’t help but feel this way. You may whine about me going traveling without you for so long etc etc, but I don’t see much action from you. You may say how much you’ll miss me but talk is cheap my dear. But maybe at the end of the day, it may be a good thing, cos maybe your attitude is so indifferent and put-offish that I can wean off you a little, so that I won’t miss you as much when I’m overseas.
I may be a pretty private person, but I am oso not afraid to make my feelings known here. I am but human. And life is not all rainbows and daisies and butterflies. At times they may be, but welcome to the real world, this is no fairytale. I do however wish that there will be more rainbows in time to come. Haha.
Anyway, the best way to destress is to go out and have fun, which is what I'm going to do soon. Good nite world!
Asphyxiated at at 1:48 AM
