Thursday, June 25, 2009
I’m getting tired of misconceptions about me. And the worst part is when nobody says anything to me. Directly. I don’t need to hear it from someone else, and I don’t need to guess. This is not caused by any particular incident, but over time I’ve heard enough to get sufficiently cheesed off. But because I haven’t been in the best of moods recently, therefore this is coming up at this choice moment. Here’s some 101 on me. I know I’m omost impossible to comprehend because I am naturally a private person and I dare say not a single person knows me inside out. Maybe if all my close friends from different groups throughout my life gathered together and tried to decipher me, there may be some impressive results but that’s about it. So I hope the following would be of some help. Let’s start.
Let me just remind everyone out there that everything I do, I have my reasons. If you don’t know what my reasons are, don’t assume, don’t jump to conclusions, and don’t talk behind my back. Because one way or the other, it somehow manages to come back to me and it ain’t gonna be pretty after that. If there’s something people wanna say, no matter how big or small, just say it to me. Simple.
I understand that some people go through their share of stress and unhappiness, may it be from work, family or anything else. Please remember that just because my lifestyle isn’t exactly the same as someone else‘s, it doesn’t mean I don’t have my share of stresses and problems. These people just make themselves look like they are unable to handle their own set of problems and have the need to say something about another person to make themselves seem more ‘poor thing’. Don’t be pathetic. And do not take personal anger/ frustrations out on me. Handle it yourself. Don’t implicate me.
Some things can be easily classified under ‘miscommunication’. But miscommunication is a very vague word. I would love to pass everything off with, but sometimes certain instances cross the line too much. When a wrong choice of words is used over MSN/ SMS, it’s normal for the receiver for interpreting it as it is. Don’t insist after it has oready been sent that ‘I didn’t mean it that way’ or ‘my English not so good can or not’. I don’t fault people for having a bad command of English, therefore don’t shrug off the blame and make me look anal. Just speak to me face to face or over the fone. At least I wouldn’t get the tone wrong. That’s the least you could do for yourself.
Other things are beyond miscommunication. Like when people say they did something but in actual fact they didn’t. I can be patient of people who truly forget things they have said/ done. But my patience for such things is pretty limited cos there’s only so much I will make another person’s problem my problem. Go think about things nice and clear first before shooting your mouth off. If unsure, ask me. If it’s only after that when it’s realised it was something that was completely overlooked and not told to me at all, not only do such people look dumb, I will see them as exactly that as well.
Another thing is even though I’m not working now, it doesn’t mean I do not have my own money. I do not take a single cent from anybody, not tubs, not my parents, zip, zero, nada, zilch. And they don’t buy me anything expensive at all, other than maybe on special occasions. Even then it’s a big maybe. I would feel very insulted if any of my friends can even think otherwise. Different people have different spending habits and just because others don’t manage to save, doesn’t mean I’m the same. I may splurge on shopping, but I may not splurge on other things others do. Through experience, I have realized that no matter how I try not to spend too much on certain things, my money still somehow disappears. No matter whether I’m having a stable monthly salary, or zero salary, I still somehow live the same. No money, little money, a lot of money, the money just goes somehow. It’s something I haven’t quite bothered to figure out what exactly it’s being spent on, but it just goes. It’s like when people ask me if I regret picking up smoking. It’s a straight ‘No’. People tend to count how much they could have saved if they didn’t spend on ciggies. But for me, unless I put that money aside, it would just go one way or another, and it would be spent on things I wouldn’t even have taken notice of. So instead of being a sore, maybe people could do some self reflection. Go to your cupboard, dig out $2000 worth of clothes/ shoes/ bags/ accessories that were cheap or you don’t like, or don’t fit you, or something very similar to another piece of clothing you oready have etc. Just look at that stack and decide if you’d rather have that huge budget pile or just one expensive item. I don’t think either choice is wrong. It’s up to the individual. But don’t look at someone else and doubt that person or be jealous. Because you obviously have a big money management problem and is seriously in self-denial mode.
Ok that’s about it. I’ve complained enough for now oready. I think one of the most ironic things that could happen is when people start asking each other if they know who I’m talking about, or start talking about this. Why? Because they‘ll just end up sounding like one/ all of the above mentioned, and by talking, it all the more validates what they are. So people, if I’m a friend, talk to me. Ask me. I don’t bite. And I don’t lie simply because I am able to accept myself for who I am and I am responsible for my own actions.
Anyway, some photos are up at previous relevant posts in case anyone is interested. And I did end up going to town to grab a birthday gift for the father on Tuesday. Got him a Ted Baker shirt and in the end, there was no celebration nor cake cos according to the mother, he was in a foul mood and didn‘t wanna go out to celebrate. Haha. Sometimes he’s really like a child. But then again, the mother is oso really brilliant. She didn’t even get him a cake lor. *applauds*
I’m having a mad craving for some really good dessert now. It’s omost killing me!
Asphyxiated at at 6:34 AM
